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Bleh...

I don't know what to do any more.

I might be on that stupid weightloss show but maybe not, if so gotta cancel Katimavik; or cancel post secondary next fall.

But now I went to this animation college open house in Calgary with an amazing program, the teachers fantastic one of them worked for disney on toy story and stuff like that and the only one in western Canada with his skills. As well since it is a fairly new school tuition is only $12000. And I'll have a chance to take my art in a new direction.

Then my first plan was to go to Grant MacEwan college to take massage therapy, which is something I would also enjoy doing. Of course wtih art I don't have to deal with hairy or zity backs....

Well I feel better now...I just hope I can make the right choices in the end.

One thing I hate about living in a city is that sickness spreads quite fast. Last monday everyone at my mothers work place were fine (relevant because I'm there alot, and I am employed by one of her co-workers). Now today a week later, everyone is sick with some kind of bug and I had to leave work early cause I could barely stand up without feeling sick.

So now that I have shared my sentiments I shall go lay down now.

Okay so this past weekend I went to this audition thing with my mom for a show called X-weighted, and their new season is going to be about families. They said the call backs would be near July 27th blah blah...I didn't actually think we'd get a call back. Yet apparently the producers really liked us, we got a call today saying we're skipping the call backs next week and going straight to the next level or whatever. Now I really want to lose weight, I have always been over weight and not very happy about it. But this is where the dilemma comes in, they will film the show sometime between September and Feburary for four months. But in Ocotber I am supposed to leave for my Katimavik program which I have been waiting to do for about two years now. And if I try for both and leave for Katimavik in January it would screw up my plan for post secondary in the fall of 2009...So it is one or the other, and both kinda mean alot to me...

So I have no idea what the hell to do...So I would love to hear anyones opinion on this...

So recently moving to Calgary, I never really thought about the prospect of guys trying to pick me up, and asking for my number etc. I come from a small town where everyone knows I am in a longterm relationship, and I'm not likely to be hit on.

So when I was on the bus with my grandmother, and I had a Jamaican guy giving me his number and giving me that look. I was caught so unaware and kind of freaked out. Like I was with my grandmother, I had just woken up from a nap and I probably looked like shit; and here was this guy hitting on me of all things. So I just used the old "Smile and Nod" trick which didn't really work so well in this situation cause it didn't express that I wasn't interested...I think I should really just learn how to say no...

Okay every year during stampede week in Calgary, all you can ever see is thousands of people dressed like cowboys in the cheap hat, much too tight wranglers, and the boots which none know how to properly work in.

Coming from a farming town it kind of kills me inside to watch all these people slowly convert themselves into a cowboy/girl spending a bit too much on it all for just one week of the whole year.

It all seems like such a waste, and the stampede is so commercialized now. Very few of the tens of thousands actually go to watch any of the races or any of the rodeo stuff so then the main part of the stampede is lost. I can't even call it a cheap thrill, because either you spend all your money on food or water; or some asshole pick pockets you...Which unfortunately happened to my boyfriend...Though he can just be an idiot.

Okay my rant is done now.

So last weekend I graduated, it didn't actually feel like graduation though....I felt more like I was dressing up and eating a nice dinner and feeling awkward the entire time.

But now I'm living full time with my mom in the city for work for the three months that I'm home in Alberta, it kinda sucks at times...specially since I lived alone for the last two years, our moods flare up sometimes though.



I do like being able to do whatever I want now though like go to the movie, or a concert in the park stuff like that, and being close to entertainment.



I kinda miss my home though still, all my friends are still there I'm the only one who's actually left that hick town so far. Its funny everyone always talked about leaving as soon as they possibly could now most are staying there for another year for work when there isn't any where to work there anyways.



Okay now I'm done talking randomly...