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Orchids seduce me.
07:27 May 12 2011
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What does it mean to me to be a vampyre?



It means to appreciate the nighttime in its mysterious beauty and secrets. It means not being afraid of the dark. To be a vampyre is to feel the essence of life in everything around you and to feel, respond and hunger for this essence. It is to be in tune with yourself and your surroundngs, the people around you and what they are feeling. It is to feel life force and to absorb it and grow stronger.



Being a vampire is striving to be the best of yourself and to be genuine to yourself and to your originality. It is to feel kindred to the spirit of vampyre; the tension, the passion and intensity, the sensuality and the desire.



It is to feel part of something bigger then yourself, something ancient. It is to know - deeply, inherently KNOW that you are vampyre, even if you don't understand it all quite yet. It is to be open to greater awareness, to encompass a greater consciousness. It is about living with honor and integrity and loyalty to those of your kind, to understand that at all times you are student to those above you and teacher to those below you.



It is to give as much as you receive, more even, for without what we receive we would be weak and useless to our kind and the world.



It is to know thyself and not compromise or excuse it or apologize for it.



I am Vampyre.

Belladonna is my smile.
16:58 May 11 2011
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Hmm... I have kept a journal to myself on and off for most of my life and they have cataloged what a chaotic ride it has been thus far. An online journal where others can read it is a fair unusual concept to me but I am willing to give it a try. I don't know how much I will put here, but I will try.



An introduction to me is in order I suppose and it'll be a rather short one for I don't think there is very much to tell. It's in three sections so far to date, with myself currently being in the third one and I hope there are many more to come.



For the first sixteen years of my life I followed with single minded passion the love of my life and who I thought I was going to be. Then in the span of eight months my whole world was destroyed and turned inside out and I didn't know who I was anymore. I lost half my family to heaven and I didn't know how to exist without them. This extreme time awakened me.



The next ten years was spent mostly in chaos, trying to figure out who and what I was, being condemned for it and so trying to be what everyone else believed I was supposed to be. It is a long time spent angry and resentful and not belonging in the skin I had chosen to wear.



Now it is enough. I have had enough. Despite the looks I will get from those closest to me, the ones that say they do not understand what I am doing and why I feel I need to do it. Despite of the labels I will get I have had enough. I will be me now and make choices based solely because I want/like/desire it. I love my husband, he is my heart and I will always think of him, but even he will not understand and that is ok. It is time for me to stop living silently inside my head and proudly be who I am.



I am vampyre. I am me. I am Darken Tross and I will not hide anymore.



Love to Live, Live to Love.