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*sigh*..........just numb..............rrrr head ache................................not so much tyred as it is dazzed.........................................







Kate

AHAHAAHahahHAhAHAhahaaahhAHHa.........





sooo bored..............*sigh*...........................just nothing..................................*POUT*...............





Kate

I hate bordom............................and to COLD.........................*POUT*.......................

...........................*sigh*............................

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..............................................................................theres just nothing ...............*sigh*..................





Kate

I really should write stuff down when i think of it..............*sigh*.........................................









I fucking HATE people...............they must parish.........................painfully...................*evil grin*...................









Kate

AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG!!!......................





SOOOoOOoOooOOOooOoOOOoooOOooo bored...





a long break and nothing to do............DAMN i need a soical life.......................even a small one......................just sooo lame..................





*POUT*...................theres just nothing..........*sigh*







Kate

*deep sigh*..............





just lost in nothing.........





i have no real reason for for............



INSACURITY...........................







clearly is one that will be my down fall.............









i need to stop this.........im only herting.....





wee........cruelty brought thee orchids.......Happy Happy........................





not much one can do when one is exclued........ by force or other wise...............







*sigh*..........good day......sleepy sleepy.....





Kate

I DON'T KNOW.........................................just going with the flow.............*smile*..........





Kate

YOU SUCK.................why do you do this............. killing from the inside.........if you whant to see it crash aand burn...........just say..........STOP toying................you don't know what it does......................................................you don't ........................















































i leak words











Kate

*deep sigh*..............it really just seems like things are falling from under me..............





i NEED to shut OFF my brain..........itll just be safer...........so i hope............



*sigh*............i can't even put it to words..........





Kate

WHY......does it seem like i have to really try not to lose him.................like if i don't DO something..........-------i don't even remember what i was thinking......*sigh*......................i need to shutUP.........really bad.......just stop and do...............isn't that contridicting....*giggle*....................i feel sick.......................i just---*deep sigh*.................just .....need a hug......*POUTY*...................................





the weirdest thing is....theres change.....maybe BIG.......but i don't think its bad.............it just maybe quit good............things are just........."going with the flow".........and thats all it can ever do.........*nods*





........FULL MOON.....happy happy..................





thats all.............i think.............*shrug*





Kate

Happy.....its a full MOON........so happy.....*grin*.............thats about it....



Kate

BLAH............................*giggle*....im so amused.......it just sound so fun.............i just wish it wasn't so hard to get a hold of whats needed......*POUT*...........poeple suck......................................................*giggling*.............*smirk*..............hehehe



Kate

AARRRRG............im sick of being out of it...so to speek.........i really need to shut up and liecen to myself..............i don't get why thats soo hard.....it really shouldn't be.......i maen i liecen for anything else.......just not things i NEED to...........more for me then anyone.........i got to get out of the house.........indefenitly...........*sigh*.................i don't know what im thinking...............i hate moodswings........i never know what going on then................*POUT*...................



Kate

*deep sigh*...........i really don't know what to expect.............I-----i just don't know.................





this weekend couldn't go any slower.................





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Kate

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*POUT*.......i don't know.......just going with the flow.....*sigh*....................*song stuck in head*



so odd awaking sing a song....you didn't know you knew.......falling asleep.......reawakening and not knowing what that song was........





makes one think of the subconious.........





ANYWAY...........



so i don't know whats going on.......but hey...do i ever......





Kate

I WANT GRIMM..........*POUT*......I WANT HIM....I WANT HIM......I WANT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Kate

since im sure this isn't read by those i actually know.........................................................







i can't i--......i just can't........it may just be greed or jeously.....but----how am i to know..................i have NO control of emotions









*deep sigh*...............i just can't put it in words...







Kate

*deep sigh*........................i really thought i could handle it...........but i guess i really can't........i mean....he says these thing.......but the odds of it being guenuan is questionable..................its not that i don't understand that stuff just happens.......i do more then some..............but--*sigh*----maybe im just being jelous, or greedy, or whatever....................................









sooo COLD...........i jsut don't know.......just lost....dazed..............i just don't give a fuck anymore..........I QUIT.............................................................i what to for really soooooooo badly..........why can't i.......why.....

















Kate

staring to think......maybe i really should liecen to my mother............not in the way she says to...................fair from it.....................................

...................................................................im just not good enough................just nothing...................................







i couldn't handle lossing..........



...i really just need to give in.............just do whatever it is...............



















i can't quit........just feel more worthless......more nothing....................i can't do it anymore.....















Kate

I'm fucking sick of you and you're bull shit....

No you're not...

YES, I am, I can't stand them any more....

Yes you can, you know it too,..................







Maybe i should just----NO.....it won't make a differents..............yes my art would shack me......but what a price to pay...........









I'm sick of exclution....but thats all I want...........sick of people......but they won't go away..............I'm sick of me..........I'm still here..................





EVERYONE MUST DIE...................









cold....jsut to cold.....nothing helps...its always there........it just doesn't go away......*crying in hands*





























Kate.........*sighs of nothing*

*sigh of relief*..................so HAPPY........concert made kate happy.................thats all...........*smile*



Kate

I'm sick of people......i NEED to get the hell out of here.........overwellmed with blah..........i can't stand it........if i continue like thing im going to brake down really bad...............



Kate