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I'm cold..................................................REALLY cold.........*shutters*.........................*tear*............................................I don't like it .....................................................*pout*............................*sigh*...





someone make it stop............please*says softly, pouting*













|Katelyn|

Beatnik............a generation long since past......yet i find then so fasinating............about the 20's throw 70's the out cast, enge of soiciaty...............our pucks/anerchest is you will....................i edmire and inspire to be them.........as i am not writer.......but thats what i write................incoherent thoughts of the minutes/hours/days past.................as if time is the only real controll of our live............when we have it we don't us it.............but when its gone we reget it....................how the simplest of things just seem so monumental........as they are writen down in stagering lines and frases.....................................so sinple yet so real.............like all the somethings just are nothings...........................................







i think thats all i have to say of that ..........for now........*smile*...........so i best be off..........



|Kate|

my lips hert.....*POUT*...........DAMNIT.......that hert...............................*sigh*...............

SOOOOOOOOOOOO......i got new stuff..........and its probably the best ive ever done........and thats a lot coming out of my mouth....really.........





BUT





i think im going to keep it to me......and unforchently the poeple walking by my as i work on it...........*shrug* oh well................*sarcastic smile*............



|Kate|





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ya ya...........pointless to have writen this....i know.....................but i wanted to....*POUT*.....*sacastic wine*

i haven't said that in a while...........kinda peculiar really...................



sooooooo im begining to really NOT GIVE A FUCK.......



i really REALLY hate the fact that i haven't felt like ME for 6+ mounths..........and thats just icky..................................................







*smile*.........DMD........happy happy.............





*sigh*.....im just sick of trying..........



SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO



you stay over there...unless your worth(invited).............



AND



ill stay in my BOX and proseed with my happyness..................

A something that is apsolutly nothing..........



...........although........it can and does hert.........





Once one is used to it........its the only....





But getting reaquanted it tortur...........



Like needles pricking at your everything........













The funny this is......i never would have emagend that I would be one to think of it.........







I always thought i was intirly amuned to it........thinking........OOoo.......me and only me.....HAPPY........no fuckers to says there worthless nothings............







Kate









don't worry.........only a lucky few know.........so you can just move on and just don't assume............................

*sigh*...........





*tear*............





*shutter*.............







thats all there is ...........





thats all there may ever be................













|Katelyn|

I can't even put it to words....it's like there's alwasy something holding me back.....and the sad part is.....its probable me.........*sigh*.....I must stop anilizing things....stop wishing........stop hoping..................just do ....regardless of the consiquens..............randomly going to lunch with a friend and taking a drag of someones smoke don't count................i must do what i know i need to........regardless of the comsequens..................................

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.........................................................and the pathetic thing is....i say all this stuff..........but the odds of it being done are slim................yes yes............the more i think or say that the more i just fuck up ...............................................

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....sesher(can't spell....sorry) shit..............im sorry i don't

remember what the hell i was doing.............*sigh*...........





Katelyn

|Cigarette|

|Surineng|

|Insanity|

|Damned|

|Sexual|

|Write|

|Straightjacket|

|Bloody|

|Paint|

|Beauty|

|Time|

|Lonely|

|Forgetting|

|Covered|

|You|

|Coffee|

|Bites|

|Tortur|

|Eyes|

|Coffin|

|Paddedroom|

|Draw|

|Me|

|Invisable|

|Kiss|

|Box|

|Poison|

|Corpse|

|End|

exile........its funny really..........a fear of it make one do it to ones self............



as if its the only thing one has complete controll of..............but then what one is doing; thinking; seeing; etc. is all that one has controll of....now isn't it.....



*sigh*.......



i hate that i do this.......it seem as if i do it to eveyone at some point.............how eals would i have gain and lost so many.............





even questioning those who i SHOULD know will always be there............*sigh*..............



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|Kate|

Glicening eyes smerd with black eyeliver



The smell of smoke|perhapes doused in black|cover the trenchcoat



Lips tast of black coffee



A favorite beat hummed as a smile surfaces and his eyes glow

















|Katelyn|

Did you know that a person will die from total lack of sleep sooner than from starvation. Death will occur about 10 days without sleep, while starvation takes a few weeks.



It's ture







Kate

I need a hug...................*tear runs down check*





















































~Katelyn~