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Another sleeplesss night....*sighs*....It's times like this, though when I feel that I am at my most prolific.

Alot has been going on around me lately, which has caused me to stop and ponder. To take a look at things and see the lessons that they are offering me.





Online Romance.



Heh heh.

I would be a hypocrite to say it's a bit silly. That is because I am planning on spending the rest of my life with an incredible woman, who I mat via the internet.

Well yeah. ok. I may be. You see...I'may not be an "old" man , but I've lived awhile and have had enough experience to know that, what we know of any one we meet in cyber space is what we are told by them. Pictures will give us some clue, and long phone conversations and chat sessions reveal our compatability. rarely do sqabbles break out, because we take turns reading one anothers words, so niether of us feel that we aren't being listened to.

But what happens after we actually meet? We imagine all the wonderful things that will happen, but do we take the time to consider the bad???

As human beings, none of us are perfect. As much as we'd like to think that of one another,

there will be some things that we hadn't thought of or things that were left out of our correspondances that the other person didn't necessarily want us to know about them.

Whatever the case may be, we must always consider this.



I love my fiance. with all my heart, and I also know that when we are together, things will happen that we never considered. We might have completely opposing view on important issues that never had a chance to be brought up in conversation. I may do things that irritate her like scratching myself or farting at the dinner table.

go ahead....laugh

I've been married before, and if you don't think things like that are going to be any big deal, you are sorely mistaken. Ro and I haven't even had a fight yet. No I have no desire to have a fight, but I know that it is what comes with relationships.They are just as important as all the good times for they can strengthen a bond between lovers.

Sunshine and daisies are great!!! but the lightning and stormy weather can be just as beautiful.



So,Rowena, My love. Here's to all of the sunshinewe will share, and all the daisies we will see!

and all the stormy weather we shall ride out together. I know it won't always be easy, and I know we'll both be taken by surprise at times. but most of all I know it will be worth it





and I promise not to fart at the dinner table.

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PrinceCerberus
22:41 Feb 24 2009

are the small things that make relationships, brother. and i would not worry about yours if i was in your place. what you wrote is so sweet!!

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MaterLachrimarum
00:58 Feb 28 2009

i agree with Aaron, fights unfortunately will happen, for many reasons, often stupid.. i know this way too well.. but i'm not worried because i know we will get over them..



and fart at the dinner tabe will not irritate me lol are others the things that will make me angry.. but as i said dont worry :)

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Long have I been a confidant. Long have I been the one to come to when life seems unbearable and you need a compassionate ear. When council was needed, I would give it. When kindness and understanding was needed, that I also gave. There are no regrets. I am humbled that my name is uttered when the question is asked "Who can I go to that would understand me? Who will help to ease my suffering?" I have been honored with the affectionate title "Papa Bear" by those who come to me, and I wore that title proudly. Now I understand why so many psychologists enlist the care of their fellow therapists. There is now no one o whom I can go. All the pain, all the tears. They have emptied the cup that poured forth love and compassion. Without that same nectar being replenished there is nothing left to give. Who heals the village healer when he lies dying of an illness. Who can I go to now? Where is MY Papa bear.

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MaterLachrimarum
00:56 Feb 28 2009

i'm not a Papa Bear, but you know i'm always here if you need someone. I've helped you, and i will always do, every minute of my life is dedicated to your happiness, and 'm trying to help you to forget, or at least i try...

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Why can't we just erase the past? Why, after twenty years must one still have nightmares of horrid things that happened to them. I can still smell the shower floor. I can still taste my own blood. Still feel all the pain, the panic, the helplessness. Why, after so many years, am I being punished for what was so brutally done to me?!? Is it any wonder that I blaspheme a callous god. Who can i turn to but myself for understanding? Unless one has been through it, one can never understand. So once again I must rely on what puny strength I have to trudge forward. No more drugs to numb myself, I have to relive this hell in vivid detail! FUCK FUCK FUCK! I JUST WANT IT GONE!