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everything fades and melts away into complete and finite darkness life is always just out of reach its hard to touch the things you can't ever see if I was as I seem to be maybe the things that I feel would seem a little closer to reality so far away cold distant this was never real illusion keeps me sane

All of these distractions keep twisting my arm and breaking your heart trying to catch my breath through this gaping hole in my chest blurred vision and corroding thoughts wisdom is only knowing when to do the wrong things in life fallen angels tell lies an inescapable flaw that can not be fixed believe the things you can't trust I'm falling too

if yesterday was real then today it lacks the stability that I give to this pseudo reality corrupt are the spaces in which I choose to linger prolonged pain and bloodied tears give way to the jagged edges of logic broken and self proclaimed idleness rips into my flesh and tears away every valid thought

the sun came out today and shared the clouds with me the shadows played there long I stayed the stars were swayed until the sun had gone to sleep

there are no winners when the games we play are without end continued and outliving the players morbid beginnings and lethal endings things that never were do not die lost and longing for repetition thinking of broken mirrors and fractured skies never knew where this could go yet its taken me as far as I'll ever go limitation set on an irreversible scale supported by blood

life withers the vines grow toward the neverending sky and burn in the moonlight emotions are transformed and death becomes passion apathy is the morbid intrusion of vanity vanishing waves of misshapen dreams the wind created by the isolated meditations of you are a constant ringing in my ears

aware of so much and yet knowing nothing lost illusion only seeing reflections did I ever really see anything in the looking glass or was the image I thought I was seeing observing itself reality in chaos and meaning in dissolution nothing can ever come of this solve et coagula

a far off sky and drifting dreams the sea the stars a flooding river reflections of lust and hate and greed lost in dying gusts of wind not a cloud in view but I'm drowning in this never ending storm of thoughts and self realization I've always been me I'm only hiding from myself

everything disappears in the dark Turn out the lights and you can't find a damn thing What can't be seen or perceived is hidden through self discovery is always a shot in the dark...there is no escaping what never was

dreams are everything where the shadows fade and reality is blurred half asleep and half awake the seasons take their turns to follow light across waves the wind desires so to be the sun and not the snow more bright and not as cold the colors change, the moon remains but I am still alone

sun spots and liquid distortion mimicking a short lived dance of merriment in a tunnel of blurred vision recorded and erased pop up previews of thoughts never to be innocence is only a state of mind the bleach only burns away the guilt leaving behind a pile of gagging and blinded planned mistakes

comprehension of things left undefined running into brick walls feeling numb and distanced getting nowhere yet always moving forward turning around only to find the same fucking wall a room without corners the edges are jagged a bloodied corpse exposed veins the wounds never heal for a lack of oxygen I guess I'll keep breathing if I can't stop bleeding

Dissolving flesh, contorted limbs a liquefied and putrid existence is this who I am all that will ever be of you left without a clue lost leaving gone blinking red lights obstruction nothing but a timing error in an empty schedule telling time with a clock without hands the clapping melts into a deafening hum a caffeine buzz the high that can't be maintained sitting in the dark left alone and drained

coagulated and oxidized am I a mound of burning flesh in the melancholy midnight sun the vultures pick away the scabs and the heat that has taken this false sense of bliss has subsided allowing me to see what I could never have felt before this brief and intoxicating moment in time

probability is the destroyer of dreams logic a distortion of reality and language a corruption of communication if only what I saw was real then maybe I could see through this mask and understand the truth discernment and reversal walking backwards everything is repetition glasses only let you see the lies a little clearer but the pain is only nearer severity mercy then death an endless cycle of bitter necessity

distracted and refracted light dances and waves all I feel is the pain running water contortions of matter it doesn't fill in the dots and connect the blanks when lines are curves webs are woven green was the sky and light was always a veil of blinding shadows life is only a piece of what is real and reality is just feeling life from a secondary source senses are dulled I was never awake

the wind shines and the sun never sets blue rays of chaos and twilight becomes night fall a never ending loop of misconception what isn't never is loosely tied knots a twisted comparison of solidarity sometimes the whole makes up the parts pieces of scattered lies

drifting through space in an endless whirlwind of time and distance meanings are far and logic much farther when everything collapses time will continue and repeat past mistakes I've never been me but who has anything elapsed frames of confusion a broken mirror and shards of my broken self destruction