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Tonight bj called me to let me know what the doctors had said about her mom's condition. unforunately it is worse then what was previously thought. She has emphezima [sp?] from smoking all her life, Breast Cancer, an inflammed Liver and a tumor blocking the passage ways to her kidneys. The docs did the old "we will give her all the medications she needs to ease her pain".

Bj called in tears fearing that her mom was going to die. I dont know her mom personally, but im scared too. for both bj and her family.

she also told me that the cancer clinic might not be able to take her as a patient because her condition is so bad.

today her mom was omitted to the er. and is probably in for the long haul.

grr, getting up at 5 am isnt so pretty, glad its back to normal agian tomorrow, and its pay day. I hate going in early just to fucking get someonething done on the planes before it gets full. I hope tomorrow wont be so hectic. the RCMP plane was supposed to be done but turns out the fuckin underbelly of the wings were the wrong fuckin color, they were blue when they were supposed to be fuckin black. the painters seem to be to fuckin busy shoving shit up each others asses to pay attention to the work orders.



oh well.....tomorrows another day.



hopefully the german war plane, t6 will be finished and on its way.

so I went to the eye doctor. I was under a light for a good 30 minutes while he was looking at how healthy my eyes were and the lenses behind these eyes, and he noticed a bubble on the left lense that wasnt on the right, and he though that was weird and said it wasnt anything to worry about, it was more like a birth mork or a freckle on my eye that makes me unique. LOL



well, he ended up giving me a new perscription for new goggles. so i went and picked out frames, with the help of mum, and I got these fancy red ones that they just got in and 200 dollars later I left. and should have them in about a week or so.



Ive been up for almost 2 days. not being able to sleep. its now 8 30 am on friday january 5th and it feels like ive been in slow motion for a week. cant sleep, Ive barely eaten, and im droping my weight like crazy.

ah well, i think its best to logg off this nightmare realm and try and find dream world agian.

as soon as im done my fruit loops

I resolve to eat better and take better care of my body this year. lol I need it after this last year. I need to get a job so that Deth and I

can get out of this place. away from the drunks arcoss the street and the idiots clouding my life.

I need to kinder the friendships I have no, keep them so they dont think ive forgotten about any of them. spend less time online and more in the real world.

lol, we all know who well that will work :)



*sigh*.......I gotta go clean my house now :/