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I was told recently that the degree to which I feel things along with my ability to express those feelings is too "intense" and even "creepy".

At first I was offended. I felt misunderstood, unappreciated, and wow..even felt kinda creepy hahaha.

After some reflection, I realized that I can't expect everyone to understand me. Having experienced some real hard times in my life.. (an illness that brought me way too close to death, the loss of very close loved ones, homelessness, hunger, poverty, the list could go on and on from the serious to the circumstantial)...I am amazed and thrilled that I am still able to FEEL at all...and Blessed that I can feel to the extent that I do. I feel that my desire and ability to express so intensely is a gift...not a curse.

Sometimes in the complicated reality that is life, the peace and contentment of simply living is lost. Instead of wishing you could get back what you once had...drowning in sorrow over time passed and dreams never realized.. rejoice in today! Dream new dreams..explore new passions..find LIFE in its simplest form and embrace it! When you spend your life searching for what will make you happy, you are wasting precious time. You will never find it until you look inside yourself and realize how Blessed you really are! Self awareness can be a long and frightening journey in itself..in fact it's a road that never ends. Take a moment and reflect on what makes you..YOU. Be in awe of the tremendous energy in the universe and know your ability to draw it within yourself. Know you have a place and a purpose on this Earth just as much as every other element of nature. KNOW that happiness comes from within.. you need not desire nor expect your peace to come from material things or from other people. In fact it is a gift from the Goddess that noone else can give to you or take from you. When you put these things in perspective, life doesn't seem so complicated anymore. Things that seemed crucial now seem trivial. Even the first step on the path to enlightenment can be incredibly rewarding. Won't you join me in my tranquility? ;)

Blessed be!

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

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Lust ~ intense or unrestrained sexual craving, an overwhelming desire or craving, intense eagerness or enthusiasm



Obsession ~ Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety



Infatuation ~ Foolish and unusually extravagant passion or love or admiration



Love ~ A strong positive emotion of regard and affection



There's a very fine line seperating each of these emotions and sometimes the boundaries get blurred altogether. When you think you love someone, yet you are consumed by thoughts of them, they become almost a physical and psychological NEED, it may be time to take a step back and examine what it is you feel and why. Maybe you desire them because you can't possibly have them.. it becomes a challenge. Maybe they are someone who is a mirror image of you...or someone completely opposite ..you see in them what you wish you had in yourself. It could be merely an incredible physical attraction, or perhaps you're drawn to their energy. Put some distance between yourself and that person and see if your feelings remain the same or if they diminish with time and absence. It just might save you from going over the edge ;)



Blessed be!