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This is my son poem written when he was 14 years old after a bad break up from a girl he thought he loved.





My heart was torn,now my soul is worn endless crying,dying,suffering and hating. Not to let my emotions go. They build up inside me,Someday i'll explode. Someday I will know I will let go.



The sin that shoot right through right threw my heart like a sharpened pin. The weight of my life on my shoulders. One day the weight will slip. And i will fall,fell for an eternity,I will.



The gap in my heart Can never be fixed It makes me sick on the inside. on the inside I bleed as i bleed for my sanity. The day of judgment has come

And now I walk alone,Down the empty hall. Th awards the demonic throne may judgment be cast But how long can I last?

I can't have the past behind me. It follows me like a crow of death,waiting for my hate to unleash waiting to take me away Ill burn

Bleeding for all eternity I will my will means nothing to them my life has no meaning boding it together and so feather of the bloody raven,engulfs me into endless demonation

its still a work in progress not yet finished it a rough copy.



You were full of life and love and joy and happiness you filled the room with a golden glow. You found your true soul mate someone to spend your life with. And someone to share it with.



Dear Bobby My dearest brother this is what you are and were to me.



Were you the angel of Love

Were you the angel of compassion

Were you the angel of prosperity

Were you the angel of healing.

You were sent here to us to teach us the ways.

Were you the angel of Death

Were you the angel of War

Were you the angel of destruction

Were you the angel of mercy

Were you the angel of of peace

If i had to guess you were all. You were a dark angel and a light angle mixed into one. You came to shows us the balance of good and bad. Chaos and light.

Thank you Bobby for your teaching,My dark angel I shall see you again or will I. Maybe I am the one dead and you are still alive somewhere in aanother dimension. Till I see you again Bobby I send you the love you once showed me. Your little sis forever Raven

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BLOODLIFE
09:57 Apr 06 2009

This is a great piece, it feels very personal.

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a poem still in progress. I have been trying to write it for 8 years almost since my oldest brother passing away.



Seven years have passed since his death. Not a day goes bye I don't yearn for your smile or a hug. And to see his smile. All i see are memories coming back to me. These are happy memories yet i feel empty. Once where there was laughter and a smile now all you see is darkness within me. His passing left a hole in my heart. I see blood that bleeds outward. It has not stopped. Ages ago i used to see color that has faded. the rose are now black the sky is black I go through the motions of life to live yet I can't feel. Weather it the sun on my face or the wind that blows my long black hair I can not feel it. Its all a dream. Will i ever feel love,the sun on my face or the moonlight. I am numb with no pain no conscious no soul. Its like everyone around me is a dream. Will I ever be able to feel the touch of a man. And not the darkness That surrounds me. Or is love and happiness and color of the flowers and the sky just a dream. And reality is dark. all the roses are black. the sea's are black. Is life a dream? Are we really here at all? Or are we dead and just remembering the way it was. Are we trapped in another dimension to repeat our mistakes over and over again. The people we are friends with are they lost souls on a journey. A journey to bring back humanity. Are we the undead walking around in this dimension. When he died he left me alone. Was it us trapped in a place between the living and the dead. Where the souls meet before being reborn, Or is that a dream too. Love an marriage is but a dream.That to me is living in hell. I walk in a place of darkness. Its grey and black. The rose the mountains the moon, stars and sea. All the colors are gone. We are all the same emotionless creatures with a heartbeat But i cant feel it. There music all around us but i cant hear it. You hear a child laughing but its faint to me. You hear friends calling to you but you cant see them. Your memories fill you up,and yet you should be happy,but you feel numb. Do you ever know if your alive or dead. And is this what we see so you don't make the same mistakes over again or all we apart of the undead. Waiting to live. And this is what shown to us so we can desire but never have. I think it is. Why would life be so cruel. A dream we all want but can never have. An my nightmare is reality and our dream just that a dream. Is it a mistake to want to love and be happy. And happiness that not real to me not anymore. The blood that flows outward keeps me alive. The darkness that surrounds us. The Grey's and black is all i see in my reality. Love is but a dream an emotion people want most. Just as I will never know love. Love is useless. I know what reality is and what a dream is. Love will never touch me again. This is a dream a desire to me my nightmare. Love may bite me one day But i promise to stay numb. I vowel not to feel it I choose never again to feel it that would be my ultimate nightmare to me.