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I called my local butcher's processing plant, and they said that I could come pick up some beef blood tomorrow morning! I'm so excited because lately my symptoms have been really bad; for instance, I went outside today while it was rather sunny, and I got the worst headache and I could barely see, almost with double vision. Safe to say, I need blood and I need it asap!
I plan on making Civet de Boeuf or maybe Dinuguan but subbed for beef as pork makes my stomach hurt (I think it's a learned intolerance from eating Kosher for so many years). I also want to try making a blood custard pie I found on the Red Cellar, as it looks phenomenal and I loooove baking!

Lately I've been hanging with my friend L, and they've said they're willing to let me feed on them. With this, I'm on a trip with them and we're alone with each other, and they suggested that on this trip I feed on them ritualistically. As of now, we're drunk on the couch, however I feel The Hunger calling to me so intensely. I'm not sure if I want to feed via Eros or Sanguinarian methods, but I need the Prana so badly, I feel it.

My roommate has volunteered to be my donor, and they want to do a ritual in the woods while we go camping. Does anyone have any ideas as to what we should bring, recite, wear, etc.? So far we intend to incorporate a bonfire, honoring the fire element (?).

I find myself asking this question a lot. I think I am a Hybrid Vampyre, as I feed off of blood, but I also feed off of sexual energy much like an Incubus would. This is where I get to the question of my validity as a Vampyre, given sang purists and those of the like. I find myself questioning my reality and if I'm really just faking it all, but I truly do feel sick if I don't feed off of blood for a long time, so I know I'm at least a sang, but I seem to mainly feed off of sexual energy these days. It feels the same as when I feed on blood, where my mind goes completely blank and I visualize the energy flowing into me, so it has to be real, right?