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I was 11 when the towers went down on this day. I didn't know what it meant and I really didn't care. I still don't really. I feel sorry for the people who died in the horrible accident, but things like that happen all over the world. You don't see most of those countries/cities making a big deal out of it.



Don't get me wrong, I love my country, but we blow things wwwaaaayyyy out of proportion. Yeah, 9-11 was a big deal. But so was the holocaust. You don't see the US Mourning over the lives that were lost there every year.



If you don't want to talk to me because of my views and you are so closed minded... then fine. You aren't worth my time. Plain and simple.

There are so many reasons I love Him. The feel of His arms around me are the most glorious of all. He makes me feel comfortable, safe, and loved. When He looks into my eyes, I know they are only for me. He has dreams as big as mine and is willing to be each other's support system.



When I think about Him, my heart skips a bit. When He gets upset, but not at me... He pats my leg to let me know everything is OK. When we lay in bed and just talk, it's magical. I open up to Him more than I have ever ever opened up to anyone else. He's the man I want my sons to grow up to be. He's person that many people need to take lessons from.



But most of all... I love Him because he accepts me. With all the flaws, and all the baggage. He Loves Me. That is the best feeling in the world.

Well, surgery is postponed. Until September 25. GAH! I hate this. But it gives me time to lose more weight and to get my potassium level up. So yeah...

So, I get a call about my surgery date yesterday afternoon. I guess the Doctor's Office found that I have low protein levels when they did my blood work on Tuesday. They waited until yesterday to call and tell me. So I had to take Potassium pills last night and this morning. I go at noon to get my blood drawn again and supposedly they will call by 5 to tell me if my levels came up or not. If they didn't, that means my surgery will be postponed about a week.



The stress of all this shit going wrong with surgery is really getting to me. I wonder if it is even worth it. I know it is because I'm going to die if I don't have the surgery. I'm just really really upset.



My mom isn't helping either. It seems like she is absolutely no support for me. I'd rather be at the hospital alone than be there with her at this point. And it looks like that may be what is going to happen. *sighs*