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Friday night I had a bit of a crisis.

I'm actually pretty lucky I know the people I do.

I did a beautiful swan dive into depression and was almost ready to call it quits.

I didn't drink that night but it's still a little blurry all the same.

I wish it had been a dream so I didn't have to believe my feelings.

Most people who know me, probably haven't seen this side of me.

After the day I'd had, I was glad to escape, but it felt like I lived more lives than I am entitled to in that one night.

And for the first time I felt the purity of my love for everyone I know.

I trust people I shouldn't yet can't confide in the people I should trust the most, I would rather help others than myself and find peace in the misery I create for myself.

Is that normal?

I felt so at peace last night doing something I know I shouldn't have, but it felt so right. Like the rest of my life never existed except this moment...

Everyone I know is moving on in their lives. Everyone I knew has moved on. Am I moving forward at such a slow pace that I cannot feel it, or have I stalled and not realised it?

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TheArtistRose
03:16 Jan 16 2013

Everyone moves, it's YOUR life that counts, not theirs. If you feel the need to do something more, then do it or wait.



Just because someone has a picture of life with a white picket fence, two point one kids and a dog in the yard, doesn't mean everyone thinks that way or has the "perfect" life.

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How do you know when its the "right time" for kids?

I personally don't trust myself to provide what a child needs so what happens if I do fall pregnant? Its highly unlikely but there's something in my stupid female brain that longs for a baby.

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Lullaby
02:47 Jan 16 2013

When you can support, and are ready to give up your free time, your sleep and your money - I think that's generally when it's the "right time".

It differs from person to person though. Everyone has a different opinion - some people insist you need a "man" (or woman!) in your life to have a kid, some say women can do it alone.



Personally - I wouldn't want a child without my better half. I wouldn't have a kid "Just because I want one" if I didn't have a husband.





So, yeah. When you're ready to give up a hell of a lot, and put the child entirely before your needs, then it's "time".

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TheArtistRose
03:14 Jan 16 2013

There is no right or wrong time. Sure, you'd want to be able to support your family or have a husband, but so many people just do it. Unplanned or planned.



Just as long as you aren't too old in the end. Good luck. :P

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