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I don't know about my fellow vampyres here, but good hell am I starting to get affected by the coming of the blood moon of september...
And I feel like my way of being affected is just so weird !
It happens from the full moon before the blood one to after the blood moon has passed, I get tired, depressed, lustful sometimes, and my mind is the biggest mess ever. I am having my biggest existential crisis I've had in a while, it's been lasting since yesterday. My girlfriend is trying to make it all better to me and I am feeling so bad and ungrateful, I feel like she should not have to have a partner getting all fucked up for a month and that going crescendo just because of the moon, you know ? Sometimes I would just want to erase my identity and my vampirism. Just delete it all, and it would be easier. But then again...
I just feel so all over the place...
I need help