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Love is a game that I don’t play so well.

In the end I’m heart broken with another story to tell.

At night I will have night mares, and dream of your face.

And I’m left constantly hoping to feel your embrace.

I’ll sit up crying to no one.

And I know this pain has just begun.

I’ll stay in bed all day, and wish away the pain.

Crying to myself, wishing they would have been the same.

I’ll put my hand to my heart, wishing it was yours.

And I’ll wonder to myself what this was for.

I’ll tell myself that you never loved me.

Trying to make it hurt less, or something to believe.

That you found another, that treats you just right.

And I won’t make a sound or put up a fight.

I’ll tell myself you’re just happy without me.

And I’ll make up things that I want to see.

I’ll swear to never say I love you anymore.

Because I know what it did before.

I’ll lie to myself to make it seem better.

Then one day I’ll read that one letter.

But until today passes I won’t be okay.

I’ll hope that I’ll see you one day.

But until that day comes I’ll be a little down.

I’ll promise myself that I won’t make a sound.

And I hope that one day I’ll be okay.

I’ll tell myself there’s always another day.

She tries to fly on broken wings.

Forgotten moments, and broken dreams.

She wants to soar so high and strong.

Never to reach it all along.

She cries, she screams a better day.

Hoping sorrow will fade away.

Seems so strong just down in tears.

Wishing away all her fears.



She tries to fly on broken wings.

Hums a tune she will never sing.

In the mirror she sees again.

Something that she will never win.

She tries her best and fights to hard.

But deep inside she's truely scared.

Smoking only 2 packs a day.

She whispers things she will never say.



She tires to fly on broken wings.

Thinking about everything.

She reaches out right to the sky.

Wishing that she could go that high.

Forgotten loves, and twisted hearts.

To this day she's falling apart.

Mascara runs right down her face.

She wants to be in a different place.



She tires to fly on broken wings.

Now the pain doesn't mean a thing.

She jumps and runs to fly about.

Even though she's filled with doubt.

She aims for the sun and to the stars.

Knowing that it could cause her harm.

She doesn't care what people say.

Tomorrow will be a better day.



4/27/10

She says the words "I love you" like they're meant to say goodbye.

She doesn't care how much it hurts, or even if you cry.

She wants things to be different but they always stay the same.

She looks back on life and realizes it's to plain.

She starts to walk alone now, nothing is alright.

She screams so loud inside, causing quite a fight.

She holds herself so tightly crying to no one.

She almost starts to realize that this has just begun.

She looks upon a famliar face, as if it was her own.

She doesn't know quite what to say, because she feels alone.

She whipers something softly, wishing everyone could hear.

She wants to live the good life, and hold her loved ones near.

She wants to trust you, so she has something to believe.

She thinks to herself, because nothing is what it seems.

She doesn't want to listen, she doesn't want to hear.

She now realizes, everything is quite clear.

She can't shed a tear now, as she stands alone.

She wants to find a place, she can call home.

She has a loving family, that never lets it show.

She knows now, that she has a place to go.

She smiles so brightly, running so fast.

She opens the door, not letting a moment pass.

She hugs her small newphew, and cries to no one.

She knows now, that the healing has just begun.



11/22/10.

'm waiting for the answer, to open up inside.

To answer all my questions, which I try to hide.

I want to know your secrets, the deep ones you keep in.

Without any judgment, or one of the deadly sins.

Tonight just feels so lonesom, like nothing is okay.

I stutter and I hesitate, with the words I want to say.

But nothing will come out now, as if I'm way to small.

Like a bird pushed off a tree branch, then slammed against a wall.

I'm standing in the rain now, shivering as I step.

I listen to all those lies, and secrets that I kept.

The pain will come and go now, like seasons seem to change.

In the end we all discover that nothing stays the same.



10/12/10.

Remember all the late sleepness nights?

And the way we all used to play fight?

Not to mention all of the broken hearts.

And feeling like we were falling apart.



Remember all the drugs and rock an roll?

And how we used to feel so old?

Not the mention all the laughs.

And fallin down on our ass.



Remember all the smiles and the hugs?

And how we thought we were in love?

Not to mention all the tears.

And all the worthless little fears.



Remember the different faces?

And all the cool, chilling places?

Not to mention all the parties.

And how we never studied.



All the moments we share together.

And how the other people will never discover.

How awesome it is to be a teen.

And livin out our heart-felt dreams.



To live out loud and act crazy.

To sleep on the couch and act lazy.

To get loud, and party on.

And dance and sing to every song.



Smile because of what you have.

Not something that was in the past.

Live life the way you want it.

Otherwise you're gonna lose it.



12/08/10.

Will you still love me, if I lied to your face?

Played like a bigshot, and felt out of place?

If I fucked all these people, and left you to get high?

Fucked peple over and watched life pass me by?

If I gave out my body, and dressed like a slut?

Hit you in the face, and didn't give a fuck?

Would you still love me, if I was like you?

Didn't give a fuck for what you would do?

If I dressed the same way, and treated you like dirt?

Told you that you care to much, and how I don't care that it hurts?

That you are pathetic, and you weight a ton.

To chill the fuck out, and just have some fun.

How would you like it, to be in my shoes?

To feel so helpless, and there's not a thing you can do.

So would you still love me if I was just like you?

Pushed you around, and told you what to do?

As you sank so low, not wanting to get up.I'd tell you to get going, and grow the fuck up.

I'd ignore you for months, then tell you I love you.

And how I miss us, and I'm not sure what to do.

Then turn aroud and use it, like I've done before.

Ask you to be mine, and lie some more.

I'd tell you I cheated, but this time will be different.

The look on your face, oh you should have seen it.

How does it feel, to be where I am?

Not sure what to do or where to being.

So answer me one question, one I can believe.

If I did all those things, would you still love me?



12/13/10.