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I no longer pray -
now I drink dark chocolate
and let the moon sing to me

I no longer pray -
I let my ancestors dance
through my hips
at the slightest provocation.

I no longer pray -
I go to the river
and howl my ancient pain
into the current.

I no longer pray -
I ache, I desire,
I say "yes" to my longing.

I no longer pray as I was taught
but as the stars crawl
onto my lap like soft animals
at nighttime
and Goddess tucks my hair behind my ears
with gentle fingers of her wind
a new intimacy is uncovered
in everything,
perhaps it's time that I'm finally learning
how to pray.

the fire cannot touch me;
for i have burned too many times.
& the sea can't harm me;
for i have been drowning all my life.
oh but you could rip my heart open,
darling,
for i have never know this love before.

It hurts to wait around for something that you know may never happen... But it hurts even more to walk away when you know it's everything you want.

How can I miss what I have never had?