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I've had two great loves in my life. I'll say Ive had.....25 girlfriends (maybe more. I'm not going to count certain criteria). Two hits on 25 tries. One of them died. My greatest love. The one that keeps the chills from never leaving. That hole from never closing. Those good feeling to never quite reach the peaks they had when she was alive. Then there's the other.
Truthfully, we have very little in common. Though quite attractive, she wouldn't necessarily be my type other than the fact that I find her oddities appealing. I don't quite understand her either. But I love her. I do. I would probably die for this girl, this woman, Christ she's almost 40 now..... And she's in a relationship. Yet; every so often..... Every six months or so.... She never fails to tell me that she misses me, that she still loves me. I have no doubt that she loves the man she's in an actual relationship with as well.
Do I shoot my shot? Do I try again? Do I leave it be? Do I wait? I'm not the most attractive man on earth but honestly there are others out there as well. Some older. Some far younger (an adult of course.....but still). Some are moms. Some are victims. Some are accomplished. Some are in college.
I was in the midst of casting a wide net to try and find someone I can settle in with for the long term. And then she texted me.
And now I'm.....stuck.