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To my dearest friend,



So much has happened between us in the past. I have known you the longest, out of all the people that I have met in, MI. And I feel for you, on day one.



But you are black. Coming from a southern state where only trashy white girls date black guys, it was hard for me to come to terms with my feelings for you. It scared me. I was so worried what other's would think of me. I don't think that mixing races is wrong. I'd be hating myself, if that were the case (it is rumored that my dad is mixed. To be honest, I don't know for sure)



I have done A LOT of growing in the past few years. As has my love for you. You have been my best friend. You have been there for me, through everything. Though I don't agree with everything you say.... 90% of the time, you are right. :)



I'm tired of limiting who I love, by the color of their skin. All around me, people are falling in love, doing their own thing... I want that. I've always wanted that..



But the two of us have always been so unavailable to each other.... I hate that. I just want you happy...



Now.. I just want you lol



But I'll wait. I don't need to be in a relationship any time soon. I just got out of one... as did you. But I know that doesn't mean that we are going to jump into a relationship together. I don't want that. I want you to have whatever time you need... and after that time, you don't want to be with me like that... then like I said before: we'll be exactly what we were before: just friends. :)



But I'm not waiting for you. I'm doing what I need to do, for me... Just passing time... getting myself mentally better. I've been so worried about who I'm going to spend the rest of my life with, I forget to take care of MYSELF... and I need to do that..



I love you. I always will... :)



~Me