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*steps up to the mic and taps it until it screeches*



Does that get your attention.. Good. Welcome to another meeting of the What The Hell Coalition. On tonights agenda we will be speaking about people and their expectations. Well maybe expectations.. Maybe its my own expectation we are talking about. Maybe I am the one is all screwed up in thinking that perhaps it might be nice to have a friend, lover, partner, or whatever that might actually want to be around me. Want to be with me.. And not need something for me.



This is surely going to sound as though I am playing a “poor me” role and that is absolutely not my intent. I just need a little clarity as to why I draw people to me that want something. I mean really What The Hell!!



Pretty much my whole life has been filled with people roaming through it. Ive been told I am a great friend, yet that friendship tends to end when they have gotten what they wanted from me. I have been told I am a great partner.. Yet the relationship ends when I ask why cant the give and get be equal on both sides and not just on mine. I have been told I am a great lover.. But not the one to have a relationship with.



Um… What The Hell is that about. I am tired I think. Tired of only being seen when I offer something that is needed. Then back to the shadows I go. Tired of men making me feel like I am nothing more than a piece that needs to just lay down or bend over for their own gratification. Tired of being that “friend” that cooks really good.. But yea sorry cant go to the movies with you tonight cause I gotta sleep. Hey when you gonna make some more lasagna?? Um.. What The Hell!!



I am not writing this for any particular reason. I am not looking for sweet comments on how great I am, or how sad it is that I feel this way. Some things in life you just get use too and this is the way it is. I know not everyone feels this way. Its just sometimes it’s the way it feels and that is when I just have to say.. What The Hell~