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Why, oh why is Charles Manson so fascinating?



Im glad my co-worker also seems to garner an interest his story.....I feel less like a freak when she talks about him.

Today, I got a message....



My friend....one of my best friends, has commited sucide. She messaged me goodbye. I tried to convince her other wise. Tried everything but she wouldnt listen.



The world has tortured her. Even years of therapy didnt seem to help. Ive never met someone like her. She endured so much abuse over her short life. Hurt by those who were supposed to protect her.



She was so bright and beauriful. Even with all her scars. I love her.



My heart is broken, I cant stop crying.

The more I love, the more I hurt.

The more who love me, the more I feel.

To feel nothing.

Walling off the innerself.

I am one but am I many?

I wish to exist in the mind of others.

If I dont, do I really exist?

That is why there are gods.

If they love you, then you must exist. Must have value.

Humans exist to feel.

Selfish. We are selfish.

We help and come together to give us a value. We invent idols to fill the void.

We exist to know we exist.

We are simply here because we will it to be.

This is so.

So shall it be.

Becausr I am human.

And I will it so.





















O.o



I found my ooooooold journal from like three years ago....... Wth past me?