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22:15 Mar 27 2009
Times Read: 616
I could use a drink. Seriously.
Or maybe I should meditate.
Hurm...
21:36 Mar 26 2009
Times Read: 623
I'm here if ever you need me.
21:09 Mar 24 2009
Times Read: 629
The last few days have been like living in a dream. Not in the sense that they've been good, but... It's hard to explain. It's like I'm drifting on an invisible river, in a white void. I'm a ghost, a wraith. One moment I'm in class, the next I'm in another, asking myself "How did I get here?".
Perhaps life has been so mundane and routine that I'm starting to lose myself. Perhaps there may be a deeper reason. Though it's most likely the former...
I should look deeper into this and see what is happening. Deeper into this flimsy "reality", the universe... and deeper into myself.
20:47 Mar 23 2009
Times Read: 637
It's all a joke...
It's all a fucking joke...
Wake up, and realize it. The sooner the better. Get over yourselves.
23:50 Mar 20 2009
Times Read: 645
Oh I've got nothing to say.
Wait...
22:13 Mar 19 2009
Times Read: 657
Wow. There's a lot I have on my mind. Might as well come out and say most of them.
Fuck you, Internet. You let me meet completely awesome people, thousands of miles away, whom I have no chance of visiting and vice-versa. Fuck you, Internet.
I'm going to see Abney Park tonight. I'm so excited! This will be my first concert that wasn't classical music. It's sort of a shame that you couldn't go; it would've been nice to see you again. It's been too long, we really should try to see each other sometime before June. In June it'll have been one full year since we've seen each other... Wow...
And you... That's something for another time.
Have a great... uh....
...
period of time. Yeah. Everyone have a great period of time.
20:49 Mar 17 2009
Times Read: 664
The people. They make me laugh.
Humans are funny.
21:47 Mar 15 2009
Times Read: 668
Probably one of the best dreams I've had on awhile. In a way, I suppose.
We were all friends, the three of us. We weren't worried about what had happened in the past, no love triangle drama. We were friends, messing, joking around, acting stupid as friends do. I was happy. And they were happy too. The smiles on our faces were something I'd never forget.
And then I opened my eyes and saw I was in my bed. I cried. If only it wasn't a dream.
I miss the times we had. The fun we had. The companionship.
I miss them so much.
23:37 Mar 12 2009
Times Read: 683
Goddammit, that's it.
I need to get away from this site for awhile, before I completely lose my fucking mind.
I hope you're happy.
20:58 Mar 12 2009
Times Read: 687
It is worse. It's always worse.
Since he's come back my mood has been declining. And my mind is slowly slipping away.
I miss my friends. Maybe they miss me too?
No... I'm just deluding myself to try to feel better...
01:21 Mar 12 2009
Times Read: 690
I tell him I need to use the computer for homework. And what does he do? He starts walking around the house, making loud, strange noises so everyone can hear. Then he walks into the room and starts yelling into his phone. He farts two feet away from me and just keeps going even when I tell him to get out. I ask him to be quiet so I can concentrate on my work, and what does he do? He shushes me. Then he starts taking out his homework right behind me and rustling the papers, then denies it when I confront him.
I swear to the Gods, one of these days I am going to bash his fucking head in. He's why I need the fucking meds and why my hair is turning grey.
I can't wait to move out of this hellhole. Or at least make him move out. Just to be away from him would be a blessing.
19:24 Mar 11 2009
Times Read: 693
I'm sorry for what I did. I had no right to do that.
I regret it, as well.
I know saying that doesn't make it right, nor does it change things. But I've made my amends. That's all I can do.
21:14 Mar 10 2009
Times Read: 704
05:47 Mar 07 2009
Times Read: 729
Wow Ron. What a screw up.
Is there anything you don't mess up? Seriously, the universe throws you a bone and you whine wanting a bigger one.
You're a failure.
00:24 Mar 07 2009
Times Read: 742
I realize I've made alot of mistakes. Hurt a lot of people, both on purpose and inadvertently, gone off on people when they didn't deserve it, overreacted and gone off on people, made big deals out of little ones.... The list goes on.
I want to say that I regret those actions, the ones I made when I was in the wrong. Even being right about something and rubbing it in someone's face, that's not right. I can't think of a specific example, but I'm sure you get what I mean.
I just want the people that I've hurt to know that I regret hurting them, and that I'm trying every single day to break my old and bad habits.
Also, this isn't directed at one person, but many. Some are on this site, others are not.
In short, I apologize to all those I've hurt, and want to make my amends.
Thank you.
00:07 Mar 07 2009
Times Read: 746
So I noticed that my leather gloves say they're made in India.
...
I find that funny and ironic.
23:06 Mar 04 2009
Times Read: 755
There are some people that I just don't get.
That is all.
03:14 Mar 03 2009
Times Read: 772
I'm annoying for minding my own business and deleting insulting comments?
Hmmm...
03:00 Mar 03 2009
Times Read: 782
Wow. I finally leveled up to Bloodsucker. It's been like, ages since I've leveled up.
Go me.
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COMMENTS
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cadrewolf
22:44 Mar 27 2009
Aren't they the same?
HunterStone
23:30 Mar 27 2009
Sort of.
immortalxkiss
23:37 Mar 27 2009
Such a shame you're too young for liquor.
HunterStone
23:58 Mar 27 2009
9 months is too long to wait