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Well it has been decided i am now making the plans to open the night club the wheels are in motion ... i have meeting set up for the next 3 months i wil be a busy girl ........well i am off to try to gather all i can for the first meeting in the morning be well and safe





IA

Well as I mentioned before i am thinking of opening a night club well i ahve been planning it for a few months now and the plan is going forward slowly ... I can only hope those so called mortal designer can follow a plan with their idiotic moronic excuse for a mind..if not i shall have to do it myself...but yes if i keep my schedual it will be ready in 3 months time but..as i said if all goes well and since when does things go well when you plan anything *wicked smile* ah we shall see i suppose ....



be well and safe

IA

Why must every thing be a game it is all games and les and deceit why can no one be true to others and themsleves they now use th ewords i love you like candy really it sadens me very much to see this all happening are we heading towards a new evlution where we no longer care no longer apreciate no longer value anything anyone.....i see so many ppl get hurt like this and ppl wonder why i have shut myself out to the world on so many levels.. anyone in their right mind would do the same really .....it is safe to shut out because the world is no longer safe for our hearts i would rather be this hearltess cold being and be safe then to be this warm tender fragile human that anyone can crush until some one can prove me wrong i suppose i am to remain this way since to many ppl use those words for their own purpose....not for the good of the other.......i have seen a few here that you know inside deeply they are genuine unique in the way they feel and see life in their own prespective.. but so many are cold nothing but an emty shell who will use what ever word will get them the farthess .......i have even met ppl here that have warmed the inner core of e slightly wich is rare but so few are they that i sometimes wonder if the wrold is slowly dying because of use because of so many ppl play so many games in the dark or life imortal or mortal that nothing is certain now...



Perhaps tomorow willbe a better day as for today i have sadness perhaps that is why i say these things or see all of this happening..





Well be all and safe

darkly night to you all

Tell her you love her

Tell her youll always be there

Tell her youll need her more then anything

on your heart you know you swear

Your all of the best thing in this life to come you want her to be there

tell her you need her mnore then anything and thats forever



Tell her you want her

Tell her your heart belongs to her

Tell her the words that only lovers say

in place a lovers turn

and now that shes wondered into this wonder and she'll never want for more

tell her your lost inside this love afair and thats forever



Your the love supreme

Your the women ive been waiting for

the answer to all my dream

and i close my eyes and breath you like a breath of spring time wont mean a thing cause this love will never end with you i ve got a friend and thats forever







This are simple lyrics sang by lionel ritchy i know so lame but the words are true to love a person this much is something now a days so uncommon



Why do ppl hide their inner selves so much to the point they do not even recognise themselves at the end why do ppl not talk this way no more to the one they love why is every thihng so fast every one is in such a hurry to get to where they are going they hurt ppl on their way and they no longer stop to see the damage they cause......it is a shame really because one day they will hurt someone that could be the....one and they will never know ...will they?



pitiful world where all are blind and no one stops to breath and look at there surrouddings it is of no wonder why our race is doomned the romance and trivial things that matter is dying....... it saddenes me no to see this..but i rejoyce in the fact i have a met a few selected ppl that still hold this ideal world in their minds and heart and still do some of these things but is that enough?





be well and safe

This day i awoke to the strangest feeling i had experienced....a dream.... maybe more of a guidding light .... i had a night club filled with ppl ....a dark night club......i awoke and knew exactly what it ment ......



So this after noon i searched the cyber space and started making plans to open one....but nothing like no one has seen before but that is all i will say for now ...i shall keep you up to date as to what it will be in later times for now my dream has exited me beyond beleif ..........i know my place in a strange way to bring the dark chldren together in this place and celebrate the darkness with music and dances with all the passions imaginable ......





be well

IA

I often wonder about many things ......yes a wonderer i am ...... someone recently said "this one wonders alot" i suppose they were right....But i manly wonder about loneliness how much can a being take wether imortal or mortal , magical or not .....take.....How long before it gets to ones inner soul .......before they explode into a massive body shut down from all the insanity that follows utter loneliness..........I have first hand knowledge on being alone and i mean utterly alone.......seeing no others hearing no others as the only contact i have is my family.....How does one cope with it all the fear of betrayal the fear of emotions the fear of ..........human contact even the fear of.......LOVE........A fear so debilitating that it causes you to physicly hurt when you feel anything to the point it paralises you to the point you distance yourself from all you know and hold dear because you ....feel to much ..to .....deeply..... Perhaps some of us are ment to be alone to be one......because our emotions are so strongly conected to others that a bond can form and in the end that bond perhaps can cease your existance if it fails you...perhaps some of us are ment to tred this earth for ever searching for that only one who can hold that bond for all times even in death and I think that is where ppl make decisions wether to search or to let go.......for fear of never finding this one this....soul mate....for fear of never feeling the way he makes you feel in your dreams .........For to love one must love greatly and unconditionaly ..........



perhaps some of us can not acheive this for fear of one day perhaps that one great love will pass and you should find yourself alone once again that would be death personified.....





some chose to let go and live with the moments of loneliness and a life time of ...sorrow.....

I despise sleep.....always did....i always beleived when you sleep you are at your most vulanrable your weakest point ...not on guard letting what ever beast it is easely enter your mind...i accidently fell asleep earlier tonight. i must admit i beleive it was my fault for not paying attention and as it so happened i had another night terror ...why i am sharing this with you because i beleive so few even enter this porfolio and truly reads no matter since i have no other to talk to i tought might as well say something somewhere.....yes i despise truly truly hate sleep i envy the ones who can slumber trough anything or fall sleeping at the touch of their pillow..........for being able to fall sleeping on the sofa or even fall sleeping in the after noon ina hammock.....i envy many ........to sleep is but a day dream for me as for i wish only to lay and close thy eyes and see nothing hear nothing feel nothing perhaps Santa clause will get off IS FAT ASS and make some wishes come trough ...i appologise for the outburst....but i tend to become irritated when i sleep.....



be all well and safe



IA