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Seriously blah

Blackdays may be ending

We may yet walk into brighter ones

Only time can tell

Lol

Where is my heart in alll of this

Is my heart still believeing in the hero that never showed up there

Or is my quiet side just letting my heart think its the little girl that still in love there

Why when hes shouting at me and doing everything to break me down does something feel the need to smile there

What part of me is that that would laugh at the insanity here

I repeat WTF

How am i hurting him and how do i stop

Anger does not come from no where

So whats bringing it on

Useless is what he said i was

I owned u since the day u were born

I told u you would call me Master

And u know these words i wont even give u then your useless a complete waste of time

I dont remember after that things got really black

I wanted it to stay that way

Here i am though and tomorrow he throws me away again

I in almost 75 % precent of me knows why

But my mind cant grasp it so i d k but something in me does

Freedom is useless when your still and restrained

But u know what it was still pretty to look at

Why does the little girl cry and is crushed while my wise owl rejoices

What or how do i start to decipher that one

Where or how to i stop this play
And leave this situation on a fresh page for both

Hes evil yes but he was just a baby still is most likely

Hes one that must have ran out early please i m despratly seeking advice

I dont want any more pain for either side or in anyway

Also if i leave his life completly it feels like i ve wronged him somehow

Seriouly wtf

I played with insanity it was fun cause because sanity kept an eye on me while i was

I played with mischief that was a blast but i had to stop myself i knew it was bad

I had funny dream one time one where mischief and joy were the best of friends

I thought it would be great if all could live on the same page

Boo boo big one

But i still wanted it cause they were all really great and they idk shit gets wierd again hard to follow with my brain

Anyways it was great it is grest but i didnt know how many there were that hated happy in its self silly me happy has an opposite

Who knew huh

Any ways its that i want to level

I dont even have the word the best i got is unhappy

And sinscere apolgies if this is too out there

I have tonight and tomorrow night then i wont be able to come back

Also if im giving it to much thought then it be nice to hear that

Hurt wondering if there is purpose in it.

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stormlover909
22:31 May 08 2018

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