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Why can't I help this?

Why can't i get a grip?

The more I think about it,

I get pissed!

I feel the anger burning inside of me!

It feels like flames are growing.

I can't feel pain anymore,

My soul has shout the door!

All I want to do is scream!

I'm hoping,

soon,

I'll wake from this dream!

But I've come to find that all of this is caused by nothing.

This is just me!

I grab the knife!

Something's telling me to end her life!

I've gone throught this how many times?

1, 2, 10!

I've heard the lies over and over again!

So why do I stay?

I'm the one that gets fucked over and played with!

And no one seems to care!

I'm getting pissed to the point where i'm going

to tare someone's fucking heart out!

Let her feel the pain that she's caused me,

that has me going truley insane!

There's no way she can give me what I want

back.

But there is onething she can do that will be

payback .

Bleed!

Bleed for me!

I need for her to completely bleed infront of me!

I need to feel warmth going cold.

I want to hold her blood in my hands!

To smell the metallic smell rising from

her forgotten body!

Because that's all she is to me!

She's NOTHING!

Looking back, now it all just seems like a dream to me!

That it was all make believe.

Yes, life as a child can be hard, but when you're an adult, you're the one who holds all the cards!

Until you become your own responability, then you truely find out how life is so uncontroling!

There are time that are easy as pie but then time turns the tables, to where you swear you're never going to survive!

As you grow, you come to believe that you know it all.

You know all the kinks, when really you don't have any Links!

When play times over and you're set on your way, you learn fast that it's a different, blinding turn each and everyday!

Childhood only last a minute.

Adulthood, you're lucky if you even get a hint!

Remember you can't turn back the clock.

Once you enter the time for being an adult, thoes two hands lock!

No more tick tock, playing time, comes to a dead stop!

I know it'll seem that growning up gets you no where fast, but once you're an adult, you'll find yourself looking back into the past.

When you become an adult, you find out that you're stuck!

And then that's truley when you know the meaning of "Life Sucks!"

Standing right infront of ieachother,



bodies nearling touching.



We both know there's still something.



We get closer,



and my skin is calling out for you!



I can tell in your eyes,



that you feel it too!



When we open our mouths,



our tounges touch,



we know the kissing is too much!



But we don't stop there.



Our hands explore eachother,



and I know that after tonight,



I'm the one that suffers!



The heat grows stronger.



We know that what we are doing is wrong!



You lead ahead,



and the next thing I know is we're laying on your bed.



One thing leads to another,



and once more we become lovers!



After it's done and over with,



we hardly look at eachother.



And once again,



I'm the one that suffers!