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I haven't been here in about a month. I am back at Destroyer. Ugh.



I have had such a hard time in the last month and have kept to myself mainly, even though I am lonely. I have wondered how everyone is and if I have been forgotten, removed.



I get panicky when I think of this place sometimes and can't get here. Hard to explain. But I needed to tonight to read messages before they are gone and to write this briefly.



My panic attacks have been bad and I am taking it one minute at a time. Will write out more and paste it here. For the moment, I have to go. I can always tell when I don't feel well...I want to sleep more, and earlier.