him . . .
03:02 Feb 19 2014
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How we met about 3 weeks ago or so:
I friended this random guy, Edd, that I found through a Facebook page, he posts a status about how he's depressed, says he thinks his friend killed himself, so we talk, his girlfriend is sad about it to, we found out he's not dead, I still made friends with his girlfriend anyway, I was in a group chat with them when they invited . . . him
the next day he messages me in a regular, private conversation, immediately he tells me how awesome and cute he thinks I am, I'm thinking well, that's sweet, but you're pretty weak as far as energy strength goes, but I'll be nice because you're emotional and so sweet and polite
then in the middle of it he randomly disappears without warning, that drives me nuts, like where'd you go? come back kind sir!
I quickly see how happy I make him and help him with his depression, turn down dating him because I'm in Pennsylvania, he's in Oklahoma, that's half way across the country, we're both 17, and I'd rather keep him as a friend at this point instead of risking breaking up with him as a boyfriend, because I do like him and my feelings are growing, I'm coming to trust him with my emotions more
about 7% of my aura is pure white and I'm pretty good with helping people, making them happy, and can do basic healing with energy so I tell him I'll be his angel, that I'll be there for him, and I am
then he gets a girlfriend that he knows through Facebook, immediately I can sense how shallow their emotions for each other are and that it just won't work and get kind of pissy and territorial
the girl isn't treating him right, they don't really trust each other at all, her friends were being quite mean to him, I had him relatively happy with no thoughts of self harm or suicide, well that pretty much went down the drain about 2 days after he started dating her
*the interesting part starts now*
about a week later he finds out she's cheating and we end up Astroplaning that night with absolutely no conscious decision to do so, during these astral encounters we go on dates, have sex, snuggle, and just have an amazing time together in this amazing sort of way, it's astral, so we both have a pretty clear recollection of it, it keeps happening and our feelings for each other grow
this happens for the next few nights until it comes to this past Sunday morning when he finds out she cheated again and calls their entire relationship fake
while at work my mind wanders, I think about the astral encounters and dreams and what not, decide that I'd be willing to full on commit to him despite the distance because of us connecting on deeper levels like that
he's not just some guy from the internet anymore, no, definitely not
while I'm at work he gets back together with her, I tell him what I thought about at work and of course remind him that she doesn't treat him right at all or love him very much, not nearly as much as he loves her
*another important part here*
during that night we have another astral encounter, this one is much happier, the emotions are much stronger, though it's still without conscious decision on either of our parts
the next day (yesterday) I discover we formed a connection, one way to describe it is a basic vampire's embarace, it connects us by the part of our chests where our heart is and we can feel the pain and are much more sensitive to the emotions of each other, our emotions for each other, there is a pull toward each other, sometimes a physical pain
I know what I need to do not to form a connection like that and was doing it, but it happened against my conscious will anyway
we've both admitted that we like each other a lot more than friends, and he just admitted tonight that probably have a better and stronger relationship than him and his "girlfriend" probably ever will
he's really emotional and sensitive, he doesn't like to let go and hasn't broken up with her yet (and damn it, that pisses me off!)
I'm constantly daydreaming about him and even last night it felt like he astroplaned again, it felt like we were cuddling for a lot of the night, I felt so warm, happy, loved, and safe and had the hardest time waking up this morning
I'm not usually very emotional or affectionate and am perfectly happy being single . . . he's just a guy I met over the internet, or is he? . . . I'm not so sure anymore
what do you think?
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