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There is something

Something different going on

The air has shifted, World has turned

What is happening?

I do not know...



What is happening?

For I don't know what is happening

The door in the front of me is opening

I see the bright light ahead of me

My heart is beating...



What is happening?

My heart is racing,

Pulse is throbbing,

My head is spinning,

What is happening



What is happening to me..

Please tell me

Don't leave me stranded

Help me to understand this

Im scared, terrified



The door of emotions is creaking

The door of faith is clicking and unclicking

The door of hope is glowing

The door of love is waiting

The door, oh the door



The door to whole new world

Where we can be complete as one

Am I going too fast?

Am I out of my mind?

What is happening?



What is happening to me,

Oh please tell me

Don't leave me stranded

Alone in whole new world

Where I might run



If I run,

The world will collapse.

If I run,

The door will be slammed shut.

If I run,

The existence of love will fades



What is happening,

For I am scare, and terrified

What is happening

For I want to know

What is happening,

For Im about to fall...



Fall hopelessely forever.... AGAIN

Who am I?

I once was

A girl

A teenager



Now I am

A young woman

Beautiful, yet dark

Clear, yet vague



Who am I?

I once was

Carefree

Free as a bird



Now I am

A simple, yet complicated

Complicated as a spider's web,

Tangling and dangling



Standing in the mirror,

Wondering who am I?

Feel free to fill

Voids in my heart



Look deeply into my eyes

And tell me who I am

If you can, open me up

Feel free to judge me



Will you know in the end?

Will you figure me out?

I think not, it is impossible

For you to know me



Who am I?

You will never know

though you know me

But only I know



Only I know myself

Only I can see myself

Deep inside you

Lost in your eyes



Yes, only I know

Who I am

Not you, but I

Only I know who I am...

Hearing you calling my name

Checking you out to see who you are

I felt something ingest my heart

Wondering where it came from

Until that moment I saw you



I knew I wanted you

I can't move the mountain

But I will climb over it

Just to see you smile



I knew I wanted you

I can't catch a falling star

For it will burn me

But I can name the star after you



I knew I wanted you

I can't draw you a masterpiece

But I can show you God's masterpiece

Over the mountain at the sunrises



I knew I wanted you

From the moment I laid my eyes on you

You quench my thirst

To know you more



I knew I wanted you

From the moment I laid my eyes on you

You ingest my heart

A girl like you



I wonder what a girl like you

Are really like under the skin..



Who are you really?

You ask me,

Who am I?

Where am I from?

When did I change?

Why am I still here?

How far will I go?



Who am I?

I am the woman

Where am I from?

I am from broken home

When did I change?

I lived with my soulmate sister

Why am I still here?

Because I finally saw the light

How far will I go?

If I have to go through all over again

Just to get taste of this for entire,

Bet on your life I will in a heartbeat.



I came from a broken home,

So rundown I slept with the roaches

I came from a broken home

So dysfunctional that my childhood was a facade

Destroyed by a 17 years old boy

'Cause my mother was in Hosptial

Just cause she was having mental breakdown

Daddy decided to play around,

Which pushes my ma over the edge.



Ma got better one day,

We moved along

Until she met a guy

A guy who is sick in his head,

Portayed as my father,

Everything unravel on the day

On the day my real father came

And decided to give me away

Away to a sicko



A sicko lead to another sicko

Finally I ran away from home,

I was placed in foster home at 14

Lived happily for a year,

Yet I missed my mother



We once again reunite,

And braved the world together,

Until she fell into devil's trap

She went the wrong way,

Played with fire, and got herself caged

Holed up in a prison cell.

With cold metal touches her merciless

She finally broke down,

Cause she knew she left me

Left me all alone in cruel world at 17

So Broken and naive

I gave up to life, to sins



I went the wrong way,

Got deep and deeper

Couldnt get out

Got into abusive relationship

Being a slave

thought I was doomed for eternity

I thought I did something wrong

But I didnt care,

No, I didnt care anymore,....



One day, I got tired of it all

I felt something pulling at my gut

That there was something out there for me

I stood up, and left.

Moved onward to East,

Met a soulmate sister of mine

She is my pillar to my bridge,

She is the light at the end of my tunnel

She lead me to something better,

She pushes me to be a person I am today



Found out something better

A real friend blooms into love

'Cause someone listen to me

Listened to all my whines,

Listen to all my woes

And I pushed her away

Yet she still there,

I opened my eyes



Now I am on way

On way to future

A new life

A new start



Yes, a new start.......

Look into her eyes,

Hold her tiny face in your hands,

Tell her she is beautiful



She just want to

Hear she is BEAUTIFUL



Lean little closer to her face,

Whisper upon her lips,

Tell her you want her



She just want to

Hear she is WANTED



Kiss her gently,

Draw her in gently,

Tell her you love her



She just want to

Hear she is LOVED



Hold her tight

Like life depends on it, yet gentle

Tell her you NEED her



She just want to

hear she is NEEDED



Loving her gently,

Needing her more,

Wanting her forever,



Hold her like she is

A precious Sapphire



Taste her honeydews

Nibbles her crunchiness

Devours her sweetness



Tell her she is BEAUTIFUL

Tell her you WANT her

Tell her you LOVE her

Tell her you NEED her



Most of all,

Just tell her,

Yes, just tell her



She is....... BEAUTIFUL

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Lordpeace
16:54 Apr 26 2009

lovely dear so full of emotions

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Hair so black like the Raven's wing

Long lockets flowing and so silky fine



Her eyes, a shade of gleaming blue

So deep yet mysterious, just like the ocean



Her skin, so white and clear like the falling rain

So creamy and soft, a sister to a petal of a rose



She's beautiful yet she holds hidden thorns

Thorns with poisonous tips, cursed by the darkness

So dark that you could fall into blackness



If you tried to read her gleaming eyes,

Beware or you'd fall into a dark world

A world beyond your own, a kind you will never know



Skin so soft, yet so thick

Roughened by the toughness of life

Rarely bruised yet flawed



So beautiful, and blessed

Blessed with a gift, Yet cursed

Cursed with the darkness.

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Lordpeace
16:55 Apr 26 2009

i darkness a curse and we all have thorns behind the roses for without them the rose would be trampled

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Like a ocean,

There is a shadow deep within us

Lurking beneath down below,

Hiding and waiting,

Hiding to devour us deep within

Waiting to take over,



Like a star,

There's light deep within us,

Shining brightly deep within us,

Visibly, and forging,

Glowing visibly deep within us,

Forging the warmth and love.



To vanish one another,

Is like to vanish the balance,

Balance between Evil and Good.

Balance between Light and Darkness

Vanish one or another of those,

Abyss will come.

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Lordpeace
16:57 Apr 26 2009

how true the tenous balance between shadow and light a balance that must be maintained

or at least they tell us that

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