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Well Just wanted to say I was able to get on for a few brief minutes and wanted to say I mioss everyone in my coven and the rest of the family. Been so much crazy thing going on.... easily to make a Rachy go Mad for those that have called to check to see how things are going it lifts myspirits alot because I have been really down and today nothing has gone right at all something is wrong with my damn cell i guess people are not getting my replies and either i am not getting them...im in the midst of a nasty custody battle and today the step monster decided it was the day to see how patient and how easily she can provoke me....I am really ready to say screw it because no matter what I do its not good enough and that is in every aspect of my life so it would seem. People wonder why i dont trust so easily well everything i learned about trust i learned from my wicked step mother and that lesson was to never truswt anyone because people are human and they will let you down,,,, Gee thenstepmother you have that one drilled in my head why is that ? oh ya thats right because every time i have ever let my guard down to you you go and do something unforgivabable to tell me today your going to keep my son from me befcuase you dont like the place i am moving to because its not up to your standards geee did you ever think that maybe it wasnt where i want to be living either ? of course not.... because your a selfish bitch............ tellin me why dont you sell your dog and get rid of your pets and then i will he;lp you.......... fuck you .... id rather live in my car then accept any help from you becfause it will just come back to bite me in the ass.





SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE LOST AND FEEL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO DO ? WHAT IF YOU FEEL THERE IS NO HOPE? WHAT THEN PEOPLE SAY THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE....





I FEEL INADAQUETTE I FEEL LOST I FEEL TOTALLY ISOLATED... MY FAMILY WELL THEY CAN JUST FUCK OFF WHAT THEY FAIL TO UNDERSTAND IS THAT IN THE END THEY ARE NOT ONLY GOING TO LOSE A DAUGHTER FOREVER, AND IN 3 YEARS THEY WILL LOSE A GRANDSON AS WELL....



i MISS YOU