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You know , I dont know what to do . I have told my husband he could have sex with another woman. I mean , I didnt think it would bother me . I thought hell it is just sex right. I didnt think about the talking on the phone and the dating and alll that goes along witrh it. I am going insane.I would rather loose my chances of being with Lee than to have to deal with this . I am so jealous . I dont know why . I guess it is like Ben said I have been sleeping with other poeple our entire relationship . I mean with girls , but it still counts. And I have never wanted to leave. I dont know if I have that much faith in him . I think the first Bit of freedom he will leave. I think he is going to take advantage of my allowing him to have sex. I said he could have sex with someone . NOT have a girlfriend. I thought they could hook up and then be done with it . I was wrong , way wrong. Now what do I do , do I suck it up and pretend everything is fine , although it is killing me . Or do I tell him I take it back? Grrrr. I just dont know what to do . I think even the thought of him having sex with someone else will push me to the edge. God , why is this so hard. I have had times when I was a cold hearted person , Icould be that way . Not love him like I do . I just am so confused right now. I mean last night I creiad myself to sleep for the first time in a very long time.Why????