Sorry
17:19 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 547
The black runs down my tear-stained face
And drips morbidly onto my blood red lace
I see nothing through my darkened eyes
I only hear the voices which I most despise
On and on, they whisper in my head
They'll always be there until I'm dead
My legs, they look pale in the radiant light
It contrasts with my blood, a beautiful sight,
And the razor, it glistens while it sits in my palm
Then is dragged through the flesh of my quivering arm
Joy and relief are triggered in my mind
And for a second, the voices are left behind
I repeat this over again and again
Just for that second when the voices end
Though my blood drips onto the once clean floor,
I cannot be stopped, I keep wanting more
In the far distance, I hear voices cry out
It's my parents; they've found me without a doubt
And as my thoughts and vision start to fade,
I whisper, "Sorry Mum for the mess I've made
Pain
17:16 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 548
Who would cheer who would cry
Who would care if I happen to die
What will they do when they find me dead
With a pistol in my hand and a shot to the head
Is that the best way to end the pain
Just not going on with another day
I finish it now just get it over with
Walk in front of a car when it's floored in fifth
If i wasn't a chicken I wouldn't be here today
But because I’m a coward I’m here to stay
So painfully I have to wait to see
Them box me up and throw the dirt over me
Fear Feelings17:15 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 549
Disturbed, no one knows,
only herself,
the feeling,
overwhelming,
torture yet no one even bothers.
fear very much present,
fear of feelings
depression sets in,
loneliness been there,
what has become of him inside,
outside,
she sees the blood,
blood that is seeping down her hand,
crack on the floor covered with red,
razor, her best friend,
only friend.
Fuck Everything
17:13 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 550
Fuck this world,
fuck everything in it,
fuck your soul,
this is just the beginning,
the pain of hell sinking into my veins,
ripping open my flesh,
and falling into dark worlds of sin,
death closing these walls behind me,
no escape from reality,
with this fucked up and cursed life,
for all to pick and tear me apart,
no life of their own to kill and destroy,
to stab in the back and be left alone to bleed,
an never return,
never see through bleeding eyes,
and devoured corpses,
falling closer into hell,
slowly burning and screaming,
until death disappears,
and after their lungs collapse,
their heart rips in two,
from hate and painful lives they were to live,
calling out until they die.
Scars17:12 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 551
Hate, the word bleeds from her arm,
Once again she did it,
Just to show how much,
She hates everything around.
The bloody razor sits on her bed,
The music plays loudly,
She sits there calmly not worrying about a thing,
Everything forgotten and left behind,
Now that she cleared her mind.
Let Me Go
17:10 Jul 09 2005
Times Read: 556
A blissful memory
A hurting past
No where to run
But into the darkness.
Don’t run after me
I’ll only push you away
Suffering as never before
And drowning in tears.
Abandonment
And hurt
Tearing of my heart
Bleeding me dry.
Demons coming towards me
Devouring my flesh
Leaving me to die
In a puddle of crimson.
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