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My father has spoken to me

in ways that most people do not know

he speaks to me because I have forgotten my place yet again in my life

he speaks to me because I am but a lonely child to him who causes mischief and destruction

a mere child who has forgotten the meaning of self discipline

my father speaks to me so that I may remember my place

so that I may walk by his side

my father speaks to me so that I may tell others of my mistakes

so I may warn them not to make my own

he speaks to me so that he may teach me my place

for it is already too late for me

he speaks to me so that I may remind others of their place

he speaks to me because he loves me

and because he loves me he disciplines me

and because he disciplines me I love him

and because he speaks to me I love each and everyone of you

and as I say this I hope and pray in my king's name that you would realize that he loves you too

Have you ever had a memory that sneaks out your eye and down your cheek

when an Elder Speaks

Be Silent

And Listen

For they are those who guide you from a harmful future

and help build your past with Joy and happiness

The Tragedy of life is not Death

But what we let Die inside of us while we live

A fire frozen in time that only love can thaw,

as she dances in the tall grass,

i walk the path,

relaxing her peaceful thoughts,

in the shadows i stay,

watching her glisten from afar,

For she wishes nothing for me,

as all else would aswell,

for i am not who to seek pleasure,

but to inflict pain on,

to reap of what others do not wish to reap,

i am strickly a purpose ,

one that is not to cared about,

nor cared for,

nor to be loved,

i am nothing,

Nothing but a tool for others happiness,

for that is what i wish for,

To see that person smile,

like they once had,

to see joy in their eyes once again,

as if they never had before,

And To see Love above all others,

as if No feeling had ever existed,

for if my pain is the cure for all others then that is which i shall use it for,

I'll seek peace and love for all,

whilst in their pain,

so that i may see love again,

that is ,

if it shall ever exist again...

I am a Writer

I need a lot of time to myself when booze is not involved

Through pain and suffering you shall gain power

I am wire set in stone

Though pieces fall off of me

I shall not fall

Quote from little brother.

"Coffee is the one friend that will never hurt you , destroy you,

or stab you in the back. Coffee is the #1 True Friend"

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Harleyquinn86
05:42 Sep 10 2016

Preach it! Lol

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BeautifulEnlightenment
19:07 Sep 14 2016

This is true, unless you wake up and you're out like me this morning haha :P

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sippa
07:58 Sep 21 2016

tell me about it



im not awake before my 5th cup lmao

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If you kneel before God

You can stand before anyone

I'm nothing but a man who strides in the shadows

A beast that is feared at night

A poor soul destined to dwell in sorrow pain and suffering There are none like me no not one for I am always and forever alone

Oh Father Save Me From Myself

For the only Shadow I could ever desire to stride in is yours

Never let someones hate weaken you

Certain things catch your eye,

But,

Only pursue which catch your heart.

Rudeness,

Is the weak persons imitation of strength

Listen,

Or your own tongue will make you deaf

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sippa
07:59 Sep 21 2016

i know this only too well

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The color of the skin is less important

than the spirit which moves it

To walk the Red Road

Is to know you will one day

Cross to the spirit world

And you will not be afraid.

Quiet the mind and the soul will speak

The white man wont love and let love be who could ever make peace with the white man.

"Heartbroken"

Heartbroken,

is a pain you feel in your chest,

a pain that feels like it will never leave,

the pain that lingers,

a pain that goes on and on,

endless,

that's all what it is,

pain,

a devastating stab through the heart,

Heartbroken,

a pain,

a massive destruction above most emotions,

and as it finishes,

as it looks at it's fine work it takes one last final and stateful blow

leaving a nasty scar,

a hole,

a memory,

that has a death grip on you,

and will beat you senseless,

every time you remember it,

every time you touch it,

it comes back,

and as for me i believe i have no heart left to scar,

Heartbroken,

too many beatings,

too many wounds,

too many scars,

too much love,

can kill you,

destroy you slowly and painfully,

love too much,

and you will have lost that love,

leaving a piece of your heart behind you,

never to see it again,

be careful who you choose to love,

because you to may end up,

Heartbroken

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nightqueen
05:33 Sep 08 2016

very well said..l agree with what you have said ...

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"My Last"

Terrifying but not to be terrified of,

I am fragile beyond build when it comes in regards of my heart,

my heart ,

so easily hurt,

so easily played with as if it was they're little toy.

and then instantly dropped for no child on the earth know any sense of love.

I stand here tired,

alone,

and near hopeless wondering if there is any woman left in this horrid earth that is capable of Loving me without slaughtering the last remains of my heart.

I have lost everything and at last i say .....no more.

This is my last.

This is my last .

I refuse to fade.

This is my last.

I will prosper even in shade.

This is my last.

I shall break this sick Haven.

This is my last.

No more,

I say no more,

Mysteriously proud Raven,

The light of my Father will shine against you

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nightqueen
05:36 Sep 08 2016

simply beautiful and from within the heart and soul..

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"Listen"

Come quietly

Dear one

And listen to the sound

The sound inside you

Inside your mind

Listen to its pride

Inside your heart

Listen to its happeness

Inside your soul

Listen to its life

Now dear one

Listen to the sounds around you inside the peoples mind

Listen to how they brag

Listen to them boast

Inside there heart

Listen to how they hate

Listen to there lust for power

Inside their soul

Listen to how it rots

Listen to it weaken

Listen to its life be taken

Now dear one

Listen to the sound in you

What does it sound like

Because no matter what it sounds like

I will always love you dear one

for they will not.

"tears that once belonged to me"

"our song"

who is this angel that i see before me

and what is the name that she is to be

i see nothing as clearly as the stars in her precious eyes

as if the night became day

and light was no longer needed in my path

who is this angel that sings

with a voice so caressing

who is this dear angel

that plays so beautifully

it would be as if the violin had been enchanted by a single touch

she cradles it gentle like a child

and as the babe coos

my tears bring my to my weary knees

and i praise my Father

for creating such a joy to a lowly servant such as i

Oh my Beloved Father

who am i to have this

who am i to be rewarded

i am but my Kings humble slave

and do not deserve a gift of this magnitude

i cry only for your salvation

i do not deserve a child of my own

i am nothing but a child myself

i am a child of your own father

Please father grace me in that of which is your will

let this child be yours

and be great of that which you see fit

and one day

i pray Father

that the babe pleases you

in spreading your word

Protect us Father

So that lucifer may never touch us

love us Father

and help us grow in spirit

and play this song

so that you may be pleased

with our family

"Closer"

her green eyes taunted me as i walked into her atmosphere,

closer,

as i walked i saw her dark brown hair glisten in the moon light,

closer,

as i walked i could see how it flowed in the endless wind,

it flowed souring through the air like feather that soured with its brothers,

her smile shined through the darkness as if it was meant to light the path,

and her laugh sent my heart flying like the Falcon within my soul soures through me,

and joy fills my body as if i was in heaven itself,

closer,

as i walked into her,

she layed her hands on my face,

her fingers like ice and her heart light fire,

and i closed my eyes and felt the smooth sensation,

falling in love with that single touch,

she wrapped her arms around my neck,

bringing me,

closer,

i wrapped my arms around her lower back,

holding her tighter,

and tighter,

never wanting to let go of the angel before me,

what a rare chance,

what a rare chance,

that an angel like her ,

would choose something so dark,

such as me,

standing on her toes,

she whispered in my ear,

"i'll be here forever and always",

and forever and always we shall be here,

for each other,

never letting go,

so we can be,

closer

"waiting"

stars of the night glow in the distance,

i watch them as they sparkle with the light that i once had,

the light that God had given me ,

the light of the night,

the very light that i threw away,

I feel the moon shine its dim light on my face ,

feeling the memories flow through the emptiness in my head,

images of war and battle swim through the darkness,

the battles i won for the Lord,

the endless war that rages on without me,

i was captured,

and love had stolen my heart,

but later the love that i had had died,

leaving me in the dark,

destroying every ounce of light that i had in me,

i wade in the dark,

feeling only misery,

waiting,

waiting,for God to save me,

waiting,

waiting for the pain to end in its endless course in my soul,

waiting for love,

can i ever love again,

can love choose me twice in one life,

can i ever wake from this horrid nightmare,

All of these questions raced through my mind,

as i stand here,

waiting