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I'm tired of all this bullshit from people who claim they know but don't have a fucking clue. Please excuse my language in this section but I am truly tired of wondering. If you are unable to honestly help me figure it out then don't bother. I write this entry to reach out to anyone who might be able to help. I have always loved vampires, always wanted to be one for real at times even thought myself to be but keep on getting dragged down by those who claim that I am some sort of demon and not vampire. Yes it's true my eyes are sensitive to sunlight, my skin not so much. I do like the taste of blood when I can get it, but don't need it to survive. Sure though my birthdate is 21 years ago I look 16. I just want someone to help me figure things out. anyone. Please help if you can

I hate anything that reminds me of the past, especially the good things. I can't bring them back and I get pissed off thinking about being unable to do so. which is why I have abandoned myspace, and facebook. Too many people that want me back in Iowa, seemingly for their own gain, and now they're on my phone it's enough to make me want to go ghost again and disappear for a while.