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I wish things could be different but there not.
Still feeling like I don’t belong and not sure which direction I will choose.
Life can be hard but life really sucks right now and don’t know if I can deal with the pain any longer.

Been doing a lot of thinking and trying to decide if I really want to sty’s around or join my father up with god. Been feeling sad alone and unsure of my future and stuff
Day 3 of calling off work used 3 vacation days and thinks I’m actually not feeling well.
Been doing so much thinking on what to do and how to do it. Will anyone miss me if I was to leave and it’s hard to tell st this point.

I was supposed to go to work this morning but didn’t as I just felt like a nobody and no one cares or loves me anymore
I’m down walking around thinking of things and not sure if life is so great anymore.
Would people probably miss me if I were to take an exit. May be.
Who really knows and I’m thinking about every option available and I don’t know which one I will choose but it will be soon.
My thoughts are racing and am I really needed here. Not sure as of lately.
Feeling alone scared and crying my eyes out.

I’m hungry but don’t feel like eating at all.
Things are not good and I’m in a dark place in my life and not sure which path I will choose.
All I know is my path will be chosen very quickly as in may be today or the next couple of days.
I’m confused and kinda lost at the same time.
Hello how are you not good

A person like me looks in the mirror and I haven’t been feeling my self lately.
Feeling like I don’t matter and would anyone miss me if I were gone.
My answer maybe. Been walking around the last few hours thinking if I even matter anymore to some people. Times right now are not good
Not going to work today and not sure about tomorrow either. If I had to answer it now it would be no.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do at this point. I’m very close to losing it all together.
I use to think I mattered to some people but I’m not so sure anymore.

I was supposed to go to work today but am thinking about other alternatives right now
I haven’t seen anything right now to make me even wanna try to survive.
I’m not a bad person and at times things are good. Not sure where the day where lead or what.
Life right now isn’t what it use to be.