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Well looks like I've been fucked by life yet again.....

Had roughly 50$ in rent money stolen...

Don't know What im gonna do...

*sighs*

Why me?

Yeah that probably sounds pathetic...

I can see why people hate living....it's 99.99% b.s. and pain

The other 00.01% is just luck.....

so its 8:06pm and the r-tards have let their car alarm go off for about 15 mins now and im close to throwing a brick through the window of said car.

i swear its getting harder and harder to get up in the mornings, i actually woke up this morning and thought dammit i have to slog through another day of this

=__=

all my family lives in another state so its just me...

yeah i have "friends" but do i truly trust any of them,

NO!

partially because they all are from L.A. and we all know how those people are...

its funny in a way tho...i moved here about 3-4 yrs ago with my now ex fiancee...and look where it got it me...

she got hooked on drugs, left me, and stole roughly 1/2 my stuff and sold it while i was @ work, wow got to fucking love L.A.

the only reason why i havent left is because i'm now working 2 jobs trying to get all my money back just so i CAN move...

and yeah i took her to court but because we were "common law" married (which is 100% grade a BULLSHIT, who the fucking hell thought that b.s. up anyway?!) she got off...dont ask how or why i dont know myself...

all i want in life is just to have 1, uno, single, ONE, TRUE AND LOYAL friend...just to know what its like to be truly truly loved, is it that hard to find?

i'm starting to think the answers a yes...

i thought i had found it but its been about 1-2 weeks now (if not longer) since i last heard from an amazing girl i had met....i miss her....my dark winged angel...

she was the first person who i felt truly understood me, made me happy when i thought i'd never feel that again, i try texting her every now and then just to say hi and how'r you doing, you know just to be nice....but i guess shes forgotten about me

Guess I AM destined to be a lone wolf till i die

~Mattani~

god how much longer?!

im so sick and tired of this rotten hell hole.

who the hell even thought up a place like L.A.



there's nothing here but gangs,drugs,and people of such low intellect I'm surprised they manage to get out of bed in the morning!



i cant tell you the numbers of times each day i hear the N word about every 3 words, i swear my I.Q, is dropping faster then if i was stuck on a 24/7 Jerry springer channel...



I'm actually surprised this cesspool of dim-wittiness hasn't either been burned to the ground or imploded due to the stupidity levels.