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"Life is too short to be cool"

I heard someone say this the other day.. I thought it was profound. So many seem to work at being cool.. Being something they arn't.





Get in to my Head, you'll have my Attention.

Get in to my heart, you'll have my Affection

But Find my soul, I'm yours for ever.

I keep stalling on calling the Doctor today for CJ. Torn between having her go thru even MORE tests, MORE prodding and poking... so far in her 8 years of life, she has had 4 operations. A Lumbar Puncture, Tonsils out, Adnoids out, Tongue tie- corrected, Numerous Blood tests. Mri, CT, Barbiturate Drugs. Most of these (other than the corrective surgery) has been Inconclusive.

So I don't know... She has the Symptoms of Mafans Syndrome, (my Uncle died this year, and this was in his Death certificate; it is hereditory)



She has virtually all the external symptoms.. Do I make the Call, and have her go thru more screening, only to have Doctors scratching their head AGAIN!.. Or could THIS be the Root, of ALL her problems... I care about her psychological health too...



She is a very sensitive girl, Takes after me big time. Maybe after her Birthday, we'll talk. Maybe I should make the call.. referrall can take weeks anyways!

maybe THIS GUY, has had a bit too much of the Old 420!!! I don't even Know this guy.... Reads from the bottom Up





Micheal420;





cuz i want to talk to u so we can talk more my love



On 20:51:18 Nov 28 2007 Minx wrote:



what for ?







On 20:50:04 Nov 28 2007 Michael420 wrote:



ya my love can u



On 20:47:42 Nov 28 2007 Minx wrote:



HI..



Call you?



On 20:32:45 Nov 28 2007 Michael420 wrote:



hey my love can u call me ?

Yesssss!!!



18 Months this took me!

Great to see mum getting better.



I am encouraging her to just rest up, and not worry about work. Just forget work.

When she gets the headaches come on.. And she is with me, I ask her to sit down.



Thing is she still worries about me so much.

I'm over all my shit... I still hear stuff about what my ex gets up to. Doesn't bother me really.. I have people I love around me. I wish Mum could forget the past, I don't hurt anymore- I have no more bruises. I wish she could look for now. I worry when she worries.

SO wonderful.. these things, truly lift me more than you know!!



SeleneTremere: OH honey...I'm so sorry about your mum! I didn't know. Please know that all my best wishes and thoughts go with you. I wish her a speedy recovery.



I know it can't help much from way the hell over here, but I think you're a really wonderful person. You are so selfless and you have shown nothing but love and concern for those around you since the day we met.



I know that things will work out for you in the way that they were intended. It may nto be the way you intend...but they will work out for the best.



All my love and hugs to you darlin









Bard:

Minx,



Sorry about your mom. I was just reading your concerns over her and the 'powdery' thing. (" Some intimate stuff, deleted for Bard's Privacy")

You inspire me and others with your thoughts. There are a few strong women here on VR that are like this. You are one of them. It is a rare thing to see this in action and I am learning a great deal of this phenomena.

I am learning more and more about you and I like what I see. You are a strong person, I can respect that. Keep doing what you are doing and telling us about it. You are a delicate flower but with a very strong character and will. Nice combination.





TheBlackMamba:

i hope that your mother is doing better. my mother has also had strokes. 2 within 4 years. it's hard. everyday's a struggle. i'm here if you want to talk.







The Ever supportive KCRC:

Hang in there Minx!



I can empathize with you.



" Some intimate stuff added that is for KCRC's Privacy"



I hope things work out for your mom.

I seem to be an on-going tower of strength for so many people around me.. With each problem I am presented with, I get a new wave of energy come in, in aid to help them however I can.



And I worry myself stupid over them.



Mum with her stroke, has been signed off work for a Month.



Her brain needs to re-learn how to write and read again.

She really isn't herself.. Can you imagine someone feeling more 'powdery'? odd expression, but this is how I feel mum is.



A friend of mine wants to end their life... They have been quite open to me about this. They have told me why.. Wtf Do i Do.. Tell their Family? What would that do.. Devastate them.. maybe push him further in to it? They could perhaps HELP him.. I am in a quandary with that. Most of my friends are very open to me about anything. I don't judge friends badly for what they do, none of us are perfect.





THEN there is my twins', pending operation... I get twin to twin thing.. Her and I can communicate without speech.



At the front of my mind right now.. Is my Mum.. I am not ready to lose her yet.. Are we ever ready to lose a parent? Probably a selfish thought of me, But Mum spent most of our upbringing Working, to support us. I was a 'latch key kid' I feel I haven't spent enough time with her...

I'd like her to see us all happy. This stroke has changed her a bit.... It is scary.

BUTTER OR MARGARINE



DO YOU KNOW the differences between margarine and butter? Read on to the end...it gets very interesting!



Both have the same amount of calories.



Butter is slightly higher in saturated fats at 8 grams compared to 5 grams.



Eating margarine can increase heart disease in women by 53% over eating the same amount of butter, according to a recent Harvard Medical Study.



Eating butter increases the absorption of many other nutrients in other foods.



Butter has many nutritional benefits where margarine as a few only because they are added!



Butter tastes much better than margarine and it can enhance the flavors of other foods.



Butter has been around for centuries where margarine has been around for less than 100 years.



And now, for Margarine..



Very high in trans fatty acids...Triple risk of coronary heart disease.



Increases total cholesterol and LDL (this is the bad > cholesterol). Lowers HDL cholesterol, (the good cholesterol).



Increases the risk of cancers by up to five fold...



Lowers quality of breast milk



Decreases immune response.



Decreases insulin response.



And HERE IS THE PART THAT IS MOST DISTURBING



Margarine is but ONE MOLECULE away from being PLASTIC...



Margarine is initially BLACK, but it is DYED YELLOW to look like butter.



These facts alone should be enough to have anyone avoiding margarine for life and anything else that is hydrogenated (this means hydrogen is added, changing the molecular structure of the substance).



EXPERIMENT: purchase a tub of margarine and leave it in your garage or shaded area.



Within a couple of days you will note a couple of things:



No flies, not even those pesky fruit flies will go near it (that should tell you something)...and it does not rot or smell differently....



Because it has no nutritional value, nothing will grow on it... even those micro-organisms will not find a home to grow.



Why? Because it is nearly plastic. Would you melt your Tupperware and spread that on your toast?

Rest in Peace and surrounded with Angels til you meet again.



I am so sorry for your loss.



I hate it that we have to feel this feeling in our life times.



People we love, feeling crushing Pain of loosing a loved one. Know I am here for you.... I will be your rock.



I don't need to say your name, & you know who you are.





I WISH I could take away your pain....

I SO Miss You Uncle Jimmie......



I cried about you this Morning... But In the wake of your Passing this year, It was discovered that you had Marfans Syndrome, and that CJ has the same symptoms of this Syndrome... I am getting her screened for this.



I Miss you though... I wish I got to spend more time with you.. I hope the Nurse that told me she was with you, was really with you when you passed, and That you were not alone.. I can't believe I missed you by just 10 minutes.. If you're watching me.. I hope you know How much we love you, and how much we miss you're kind gentle Nature on this Earth.

Carrying your shoes in a bag out of that hospital was one of the most upsetting things I have ever had to do, But I did it in respect for you.



I Miss you... So much