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Was watching this program, like you do.. only this one was actually inspiring.... (I actually dislike soap operas).. But it Occured to me that Our livinf creatures are quite close..



(slight Digress) WHY do crabs walk sideways??





Sea Horses... Earth Horses??



Parrot Fish.. Tree Parrot ?



Cat Fish... Feline Cat?



Sea Snake... Land Snake?



Sea Cucumber... Edible, earth Cucumber?

Sea snail.... land snail?





How is this link made from sea to Land?

and there is NO eye on nature??

Really?

How can there, NOT be?



Hmmmm........

One does wonder....

Woke up this morning... Really not wanting to get up... One eye open other still wanting to sleep, I fumbled for my alarm, and clicked 'snooze'... arrrh another 10 minutes of sleep... I probably never do go back to sleep when I do that.



Then I hear CJ's alarm going off... *stretching* I guess I should get my ass out of bed..... Still a murky darkness as the Autumn season is in deep progression.

Sweeping my hair off of my face I get dressed, calling out to the girls.. 'morning girls, are you getting up?' 'Yes' they reply...



Aspen enters my room as she is dressed.. hair all over her face, I smile, and I say to her to find a brush to get those locks looking like the pine nut brown silk again.

I still have the thoughts of going back to my bed in the back of my mind.. But I'm driven with the needs, and deeds of the day.



As I clamber downstairs, I pick up the utility bill on the floor beneath the letter box.... I think to myself that'll be another £100 ($200)..... I think I must fill in the application forms... mulling my tasks for today as I prepare the girls Breakfast, and listen to them, tending to them as I half listen to my thoughts.



It is drizzly outside so I reach for my storm jacket... I don't feel like making myself look my best... I don't have much confidence about myself... So why should I try....

Cj approaches me and looks up at me and smiles.. I love seeing my girls smiling.. It;s so precious. CJ has the softest voice you'll ever hear on a child.

We linger in a moment.. Hugging. Then I say "c'mon poppy, finish your breakfast we have to get ready to go to school"

Also in the back of my mind is Ian... if things will ever truly improve for better.. has he truly learned by his mistakes...Im unable to see down the line with that one. I mean he says he is so sorry.. but is also rushing me to stop reminding him of what he did.. and I'm stopping us moving forwards! I don't understand. I got really hurt by how he treated me, and he doesn't seem to care that I need time, and understanding.

So I have had all THAT in my mind this morning.. just while I was getting the girls ready for school... As we walk to school, we chat it's out of my mind whilst making our way there before the rain starts, became an instinctive priority.



which brings me to this moment.. where I write this vent......... No wonder eh?

Have had a break from arguements.... Not been called ANY names.

So it's given me some head space..... Trying to see where I have gone wrong. Coz he wouldn't have got mad if I was doing something right in HIS eyes, right?