here's the true story about me and who I am ...
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I live a life that most people would never want to live
the things that go through my head would basically
drive most people insane to do stupid shit and to hurt
people that are close to you.
I never thought for a second that I would go through
what I'm going through right now
the things I hear and see drives me
crazy.
trust me I want it to end but its a part of me and who I am now
it only takes a few things and I snap at people I love and care about
I try not to but sometimes it's hard not to snap all they have to do is
say the wrong thing and I snap.
does that mean I'm a bad person? no it don't I'm really a good person that would do anything for anyone when I can
all because I have a mental illness does it mean that I'm crazy? no not really
is it apart of me? umm yes it is its something I have to live with the rest of my
life and take meds for to keep me leveled
do I have friends? yes I have a best friend that been in my life since high school and she has been there when ever I needed her to be she has never turned her back on me unlike some people in my life.
I dreamt that there were people around me that were filled with zombie worms which were turning them into zombies I was trying to get away from them by climbing up on buildings and there was a guy with me everytime i woke up i saw that my fan turn into a shadow zombie and my bedroom door was a person standing there laughing at me... so now im sitting here drinking coffee and playing online trying to forget about the damn dream i had
im still freaked out about it
COMMENTS
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ShatteredAura
16:27 Sep 30 2020
By no means does it make you a bad person
MoonlightSinners
16:54 Sep 30 2020
i sometimes feel like it does
ShatteredAura
17:42 Sep 30 2020
It is something that you are working on by taking medications,and letting people know beforehand. That makes you a very good person