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Drowning.
12:53 Feb 09 2011
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I'm done with my mother and all her shit. I'm not putting up with it for much longer. I'm so fucking done with everything. I mean if it's not one problem it's another. I get blamed for things I don't even do now. and it's not happening anymore.

idgaf if out original plan doesn't work.

I'm fucking leaving to wherever I can, the first chance I get. I'm done being treated lyk fucking shit. I'm tried of this damn drama every god damn day.

I just want to lay down and cry.

I can't take much more of this bullshit.

It's gonna be the death of me.

Honestly it's getting to the point where I just want to give up on everything. I don't want to try anymore. The only good thing I have in my life keeps almost leaving me.

The only ay I can be happy is to say "fuck it" to 11 years of school, when I just got things going good. The only friends I have to help me are online, and my family screams at me for wanting to be alone so I can alm down. And I can't stand being in this house anymore. I feel lyk I'm sufficating. Everything around me is crashing down and I just can't hold myself up anymore. I just want to lay down and sleep...I'm so tired...

It's lyk everything I've ever wanted is stacked on a shelf way to high to reach, and it only hurts me to try. I feel lyk slowly I'm stepping twords a cliff, and even though I take messures to avoid it, I end up on a faster track there. And now all I can do is cry.

I find it funny how I can spill advise to everyone. Put on a happy face and sit through hours of phone alls and IM's to help others through any and every problem they have, and I an help fit the problem....the only thing I can't fix is me :( and I don't understand why.

I feel lyk I'm drowning. I have nothing to hold on to, for now I'm floating on my back but eventually I'll just sink.