todayyy eldon came over and we spent like a long time together. :) it was great. i enjoyed his company. he even stayed for supper! loll yayy. it was awesome. :) he's coming over tomorrow. ^-^
my head hurts. -.- Tony made me a "best friends" sign. it's great! i love you tony! ♥
sometimes i wonder if there's anyone out there for me. = some people say we all have someone out there for us, but when am i going to meet mine? maybe i already met him, but my sexuality got in the way and i no longer have that someone. hmmm. /=
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You'll find that certain someone sweetie you can believe that *smiles*
Maybe you did find him, but if it was him, he would accept that you're bi, like me, and he wouldn't care sweetie.
That's Right
We sign our cards and letters B.F.F
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
Your looking out for me you've got
my back
It's so good to have you around
You know the secrets i could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel
yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground
Your a True Friend
Your here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
You talk with me now and into the
night
Till it's alright again your a
True Friend
You don't get angry when i change
the plans
Somehow your never out of second
chances
Won't say '' I told you'' when I'm
wrong again
I'm so lucky that i found
A True Friend
Your here till the end
You pull me aside when something
ain't right
You talk with me now and into the
night
Till it's alright again
(BRIDGE)
True Friends will go to the ends of
the earth
To find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and
the downs
Till they find someone to believe in
A True Friend your here till the end
You pull me aside when something
ain't right
You talk with me now and into the
night
No need to pretend
(your a true friend)
Oh a True Friend
Your here till the end
You pull me aside when something
ain't right
You talk with me now and into the
night
Till it's alright again
Your a True Friend
Your a True Friend
Your a True Friend
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hzm8SFGsd_I
this song goes out to my best friend Tony. I love you darling! ♥
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19 weeks till i graduate high school!
19 weeks till i'm out on my own.
19 weeks till i'm considered an "adult"
19 weeks till i'm out of school.
i'm soo excited!
fifteen weeks till the day of silence!
i need a break.
a break from my family.
a break from the computer.
a break from my cousins.
a break from this house.
a break from all the noise that's going on here.
a break from all the fighting.
a break from the crying.
a break from the kids.
a break from being tired.
i just need to get out of here, and go somewhere. I wana go see someone, and walk around. like my friends did when darrell was here.
a break from school.
four months till i graduate, and that's fine with me, i'll be excited to get the hell out of this stupid little town. it's stupid to an extent... all my friends live here. :) well the ones that i see every day at school.
a break from my headaches. -.-
ect. ect. ect.
i just need a break from pretty much everything.
i had to go to school today for credit recovery. it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. :) hehe. i'm kind of tired. i didnt get to bed till 12:30ish... and i woke up at 7. >.< sooo im on the grouchy side just a little bit, but not too bad. I saw christa and ali there. :) Christa waved. :) I also saw marz there too. :) yayy! i only had to do four quizzes and then i could leave. so it took an hour and a half to do so, and i think well on them. :) yayy
i found the movie twilight online, and i watched over half of it, and i have to wait a half hour to watch the res of it. >.< im gonna go insane. :P
sooo when we get back to school the fifth of january, im going to make a video of our school... i dont know what its going to be about, but im going to make a video... :)
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hehe i got two people to come to vr. ^-^ i'm excited :)
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i dont know what to write. i'm kind of tired. >.< my head hurts. my tummy hurts, and i don't feel very well... i'm cold. kind of bored, but glad that school is out for a while. :)
we opened our christmas gifts, and i got a vacuum, a camcorder, slippers, nail polish, socks, a shirt, and i think thats it. :) yayy me!! ^-^
i think im going to go watch a movie.
some people on here tend to piss me off. -.-
i got asked what 4.17.09 by a guy on my yahoo. I told him, and he's all "oh". he didnt seem very enthused about it.... and then i preceded to tell him that it was a month before i graduate. and he was all "ah... okie". something wrong with me being silent on the dos? i'm my own person, and the guy is just an aquaintance... >.< grr!
on the contrary, it's christmas eve. :) i get to help be santa tonight. :) my brother still believes in him. :)
for some odd reason, my nose hurts really bad. >.< grrr.
on another note, i have almost 50,000 pages viewed on here. :) and almost 16 days :) and i'm still stuck at level sixteen. >.< but have progressed up to 83%. :)
on the next note, it's christmas eve. it doesnt feel like it. >.< someone fix it! and when we get back to school, i'll have four months and twelve days till i graduate. >.< that means i have to figure out my future sometime soon. :)
i got a 100% on my video that i did for sociology. :) I got an A for the semester. :)
just finished my video for sociology, and i sent it off and this one chick was all "GAY RIGHT!?!" and the teacher told her it was mine and Josh's video. she shut up after that. it's something i support, and if they don't like it, then don't look at me or talk to me. (: I think i did a good job on it. I worked really hard on it, and to get a response of "GAY RIGHT!" it makes me want to punch someone... >.< it angers me. yes i did a video on that. omg better cut my head off or something. >.< i feel like running out and crying... :( bad idea? grrr! i hate people...
Dylan and I got into an argument in studyhall, and I won. :) hehe even though he said i didnt. :P
soo here is my second semester schedule for school
A Days(1,3,5,7)
German II
Samson, Britt
Algebra II
Edwards,Joan
Lang Arts 11
Klein, Angie
Girls Chorus
Czmowski, Julie
B Days (2,4,6,8)
Personal Finance
Peiffer (E), Elaine
Brit Lit
Haberstick, Darlene
Commons 11/12
Moon, Demi
Commons 11/12
Moon, Demi
soo... i went to go trade my classes around for next semester... I have two classes on even numbered days (2,4,6,8) and four classes on odd day classes(1,3,5,7). I had to drop woods because I wanted to trade my german for the teacher that I had, and i also wanted to trade my language arts teacher for the teacher i had this semester. Sooo I got them, but i had to drop woods to get them. Now i have two studyhalls the same day in a row. (6 and 8) I had to add a class so i wouldnt have three studyhalls... soo i added british litature.
anyone wana trade?
Eldon "loves" Kim.
he's not together with Kristina anymore... thought they were, but they're not... he's with kim now. -.-
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Is Kim mentally retarded?
I think she is...
sooo we went to the movies lastnight, and we saw the day the earth stood stil, and it kind of sucked...>.< i didnt like it, but i also couldnt get comfortable in those evil seats.... i got to sit by kellcey on the end. :) which isnt soo bad i guess... but i wanted to sit by darrell and christina, but i got to sit by kellcey. :) on the way home, we almost hit a cat. it was orange, and Darrell screamed... and when we got home, they all got out so i could pull into the garage, and david threw three handfuls of popcorn at me. i giggled, but i was wondering why he was doing it. :P
before we went to the movies, we were at the panda garden and Jean was obnoxious... really loud and burping and stuff.. it was gross.>.< marz was there too :) David's hair has gotten longer. It's kind of like Dylan's but not that long... David doesnt look good with long hair... >.< his curls are messed up... :P Darrell kept hiding her hand from mom yesterday. She had her ring on and was hiding it :)
Just a castaway
An island lost at sea
Another lonely day
No-one here but me
More loneliness
Than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair
Ill send an sos to the world
Ill send an sos to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life
But love can break your heart
Ill send an sos to the world
Ill send an sos to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
Ooh... message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
Walked out this morning
Dont believe what I saw
A hundred billion bottles
Washed up on the shore
Seems Im not alone in being alone
A hundred billion castaways
Looking for a home
Ill send an sos to the world
Ill send an sos to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
Message in a bottle
Sending out an sos
Sending out an sos
Im sending out an sos
Im sending out an sos...
this morning my friend Melanie came and got me for our saturday morning thing. :) when we got in the car, she asked me if i had any pants and if i would like to go to walmart to get some. I told her i had two pairs, but i'd like to have more. So we went to walmart and she said i could have three pairs of jeans and three shirts to go with it. Well.... i got the pants, but i didnt get the shirts, i got hoodies instead. :) hehe yayy! I thanked her a lot :) it was great. :) it was my christmas gift from her :)
i passed government classs ^-^ with a d, but heyy i did okayy on it :)
soo tuesday i only have twoo tests. :) algebra, which i dont need to pass, but probably should... and woods, i'll pass that quite well :) than almost twoo weeks off for christmas ^-^ yayy! im soo ready for it!
soo i have finished with all my tests... :) i think i did okay on them :)
the worst test is over. *sigh* thank goodnes...i think i did okay... i'm not sure... >.< now i have to do my language arts test and my german test. :)
semester tests today... >.<
i have three.
government
la 11
german
and thankfully no test in vocal. i'd fucking torch her hair if she made us take a test.
yesterday jean was really nice to me... i dont know why... but i kind of enjoyed it :) hehe
sooo right now i like three people. two girls and a guy... the guy is pretty much a scum bag. >.< and i dont know why i like him, but he's a good friend ^-^. hehe the girls... they're both amazing! ♥ i love them very much. they're both here on vr, and that's how i met them. :) well one anyway... the other i met on myspace. (: hehe the guy... well i've known him since forever... I dated him when i was in the 10th grade. soo im pretty sure a couple people know who i'm talking about. again i have no idea why in the world i like him... >.< fdlksflkjsflkjsadf
on the contrary we have semester tests tomorrow and i only have three.^-^ and i'm almost finished with twilight ^_^ yayy me!
now im off for now, till i decide to write more. :) bye bye♥
soo i just randomly found out that one of my friends smokes. it surprises me in a way, but then again it really doesn't... it pisses me off... i dont really want an ashtray as a friend... -.- it seems like our friendship has gone down the drain. :( it saddens me.
someone fix it! >.
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Jean? :Darrell told me she started smoking:
it is jean. >.< she decided to tell me after eldon told me... but i didnt say anything... she was complaining about how she hates him and that he told darrell she smokes.
soo supposely Eldon's girlfriend broke up with him lastnight because her mom made her... well there goes that relationship. :)
I won't be on much. >.< The home computer has a really bad virus and the internet died, so I'm only going to be on during school.
i remember when i first met you. You were so quiet. I dont know if that was a good thing or not, but you were. I remember you going to the rochouse. Jessica and i have a picture of you when you were chubbier. It was soo cute ^-^ i wanted to hug you. :) as the years progressed, our friendship didnt really move on either. we talked for a bit, but it was these last two years or so that our friendship progressed and now we're friends. I wouldn't trade you for the world. I love you very much. :) and you'r amazing. I love you ♥ and i would never trade you cause I can actually trust you and talk to you. I don't think we're best friends, but i think we're progressing to becoming close. :) Ily♥
today we started school at 10:00, it was two hours late cause of the weather.
soo all our classes are set back and so is lunch.
anyway... during my sixth period class another student and i cut out these things for the teacher. it was tiring, and it took forever. >.< I had the chili chicken crispito thing that we had for lunch and it was amazing :) ^-^ i've never tried them till today cause the options were either the crispito or a french dip, and i wanted neither, but i got the crispito. :) and it was amazing! loll anyway... after awhile of cutting out the things for the teacher, i went to go visit Dylan. That was fun cause i confused him, but i didnt make him jump. that was my intention to make him jump, but it didnt work. :(
so that's my day so far. :)
Soo dylan and i were talking earlier about dating and we were talking about the ones I dated. I've dated five people and Darrell has opinions about three of them cause she didnt know the other two. soo anyway... we were talking about two people that we both know and their dating habits. one is like 19 or 20 and he asked a 15 year old out and she said no, thankfully. the other guy that we know is like ten times worse cause he's dated 5th and 6th graders and probably has tried to date two at a time, like the other guy has. >.<
on the contrary I have a squishy teddybear from Tony ^-^
I got tony's gift today ^-^. It's adorable!!!! :) it's a teddy bear. :)
Eldon and Kristina are engaged. >.
at lunch today I made Dylan jump. I hugged him and he jumped. It was my plan all long to scare him and make him jump, but i hugged him ^-^. hehe
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Today in woods I had to drag out my headphones and my flash drive and listen to music. That hasnt happed for a while. I'm all fired up and ready to hit someone. Blame Jeramy. He started up on me about vr and Dylan again. He claims he didnt call me a freak the last time we had this "talk", but he did cause i remember. anyway... Peiff got involved and listen to me get pissy with Jermay and he was all "I thought i was the only one that could piss her off that bad". Well we can blame Jeramy. Supposely Dylan is a gothic fag that does acid and pukes blood, and I'm a freak for being on this site. I'm always on it and he makes it sound like a bad thing.... >.< grrr. i hate him, and he knows the little things that can fucking piss me off. and it fucking works too...
"you know how we turn to blue when we choke, well smurfs are already blue, so what color do they change when they choke?" -shelby
i have a really bad headache. >.< I wana go homeee. :'(
Mrs. Cook asked what i was doing for my project and I was all "gay rights" and she was all "somehow i knew that". she smiled and giggled just a little bit. Does that mean I'm boring and perdictable? Is that a bad thing that she knew that I'm going to do gay right? All i know is that I turned bright red after she said"somehow i knew that".
soo i got my senior hoodie today ^-^. It fits better than my other sweater type thing that i wear all the time. :) I shall wear my senior hoodie tomorrow, and my girlscout one the next day and then friday ill wear my zip up hoodie. :) hehe yayy for hoodies!! my next hoodie goal is to get a vr hoodie. :)
Es gibt diesen Kerl auf der Vampir-Pracht, die Nachrichtenübermittlung mich behält. Es gibt nichts Falsches, das aber er sich gerade zufällig dafür entschied, im "Wunsch hinzuzufügen, waren Sie meine Freundin". Ich bin zu nett, um alle "Um ... nicht zu sein Es tut mir leid, dass aber Sie Gros" oder "sind Es tut mir leid, dass ich" oder etwas wie das genommen werde. Hoffentlich weiß er doesnt, wie man spricht oder Deutsch liest. Jeramy ist ein meany dummer Kopf. Ich hasse ihn. Er war alles "Sie sind dabei zu versagen Wald verursacht Sie didnt machen ein Projekt." Gut bin ich darin im nächsten Halbjahr, ich kann etwas dann, machen Gut bin ich darin im nächsten Halbjahr, ich kann etwas dann, und mehr als wahrscheinlich machen, dass ich dabei bin, etwas zu machen. Dieses Halbjahr war meine Verwirrung vom Halbjahr. Ich gehe wirklich hart im nächsten Halbjahr zur Arbeit, weil das bedeutet, dass ich Höhere Schule in einem Halbjahr in Grade einteile. Oh, wie ich erschrocken und nervös bin. Ich weiß, was ich sein will. Ich will ein deutscher Lehrer sein.
This morning i was walking to class and Dylan came so i stopped to talk to him and we talked for a few minutes and then he showed me this document thing on the wall and it has an ant in the frame. We named it steven. :)
I really think today is going to be a good day. :) Besides jeramy being mean, it's going to be great. (:
read pages 374-382
questions 2-6 page 383
vocab on quia.
Owl creek bridge.
where do you think gay rights will be in the next two years? Do you think people will be more active with gay rights or not?
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that leaves to be noticed, though your stance on the issue is left open i see...
I, sadly, believe it will still be the same. Although we have made some progress with now 2 states allowing gay marriage.
but peoples idea's, will remain the same.
omg I had godfathers for lunch with ashly and we each had two plates. I burnt my mouth on the potatoes and the dessert pizza cause it was too hot. >.< we had five minutes to get to school and when we got there we had about 45 seconds to get there. i'm not going to eat out all week next week. this is the first time ive eaten out this week anyway. It was good, just the time limit sucked. >.
yesterday we started our project for sociology and i'm doing gay rights and i was looking for info and i found this one site that claims sexuality can be changed. Soo here are my source. :)
http://borngay.procon.org/viewtopic.asp
here is the site. :) it asks about if sexualty can be changed and if a germ is involved with sexuality. -rolls eyes-
COMMENTS
No.
Sexuality is in your head, it's chemical.
Like the fetish with feet and sex. the feet part and sex part of your brain are every close, and sometimes they get connected, and there for, people have that fetish. my science teacher explained this to em when i asked him why he thought i was bisexual when i never choose to be, i just am.
Maybe if the chemical proportions are put back to right, working order, then it may be possible for a human to become straight again. but, i highly don't see that as an option.
Humans just need to accept the fact that us bisexual and gay's are out there, and can't be changed back, no matter how hard they try.
Yes, i am quite intelligent in the category. if you have any further questions, please do not hesitate to ask me.
i have just randomly noticed that in my saved folder, i have over 2000 messages saved. :| is that a bad thing??
COMMENTS
Yes.
i have less then 20 i believe.
haha
i save all my messages though. :) Most of them aren't worth saving but i dont want to delete them.
15 to be exact.
niice. ive saved all of mine. :) then i had the sudden urge to delete some. :)
life is like a coin, you can only spend it once. Spend it the way you want, but remember you get one life.
COMMENTS
not if u beat the vending michine.
and get it back!!!
that's not what the sentence is implying there Tony. It is implying that you only have the coin once and you only have life once. You only live your life once.
aint i a woman.
pages 354-356.
questions 2-6 page 357
vocabulary on quia
I have two new email buddies.^-^ Alex and Todd.
so that brings my total up too six.
My emaily buddies are:
Dylan
Christa
Teresa
Hillary
Alex
Todd
Eldon
Sam
Ashly
Jessica
Jean
^^ give or take the last five. I rarely email the last five, but i still email them sometimes :)
welll, i dont know what to write about. I have a lot on my mind. Todd asked Kim out and he loves her. Alex, his girlfriend, found out and wants kim to break up with him. My head hurts. -.- I found my bracelet that i lost. :) that's always worth of knowing :) hehe. Lastnight Darrell and I talked about a lot of stuff. Sexuality, friends, hurting, roses, Ariel, colors, her missing david. The whole world is going down. :P
I have just finished Breaking Dawn. :) For the most part I thought it was quite good. :) It took me a month to read a 754 page book. I couldve finished it earlier, but i didnt want to. I am now done with the twilight series. :) yay me!! ^-^ Now onward to find something else. :)
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I freaked the fuck out. I mean Jacob imprinting with Bella's baby??? SICK! The movie sucked, totally not worth 10 bucks.
I didnt like the whole Jake imprinting on Nessie, but other than that, I really enjoyed the book.
is it that time of year where people make of someone's sexuality? hmm. My friend Teresa and I are talking about sexuality in an email, and well I have just discovered that there are a lot of homophobes. Well i havent just discovered it,but it really angers me.-.- If someone wants to be a homosexual, then let them. There's nothing wrong with homosexuality. Is there? I know this subject comes up a ton of times and it has a lot of consoversy, sorry if i spelt that wrong, but i think people that are straight and think homosexuality and every other kind of sexualit is wrong, they should that person be and leave them alone. I have a huge opinion on the whole "is homosexuality good or bad? pure or evil? Should that person that is gay go to heaven or hell?" well, personally I think that the people that think homosexuality is ruining society, they should take another look around and see that religion is ruining society too. Aids, rainbows, unicorns, gays, lesbians, bisexuals, ecetera aren't the only thing that's ruining society. Religion, abortion, the economy, homophobes, haters, ect. are ruining society. Maybe the people that think gays and everyone that's not straight should get a good grip of reality and come to their senses that gays aren't just ruining society.
kayyy that is for now. I shall be back. :)
COMMENTS
Technically people don't choose to be gay. :P
True.
I have a C in that class. =| it surprises me... but i did quite well on the last test we had.^-^ yayy me!
in other news concerning grades, i did horrible on my german test. -.-
I don't feel good >.<
someone fix it!
COMMENTS
*hugs*
thanks :)
-pokes u-
THERE. your healed.
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DreamlessNight
04:00 Dec 31 2008
Love you 2 Rae!