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!11 day
15:22 Jan 31 2011
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11.What do you really want? But really…



This is a dumb question because i dont know what i really want. =\ I want britany back in my life. I miss her hugs and kisses and holding eachother most. I want a lady that will treat me right. I want one that will love me for me. that's all.

day ten
19:37 Jan 30 2011
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10.Whom do you secretly envy? Why?

I envy Britany's girlfriend because she has Britany and I dont. but it's whatever.

nine day
14:25 Jan 29 2011
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9.Which song do you sing only when you’re alone? What memory does it bring back?



There's a lot of song that I sing when I'm alone. Mostly they're up with pepole songs. They bring back memories from my tour, and they're really easy to listen to. :)

would you rather
03:09 Jan 29 2011
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would you rather eat a chocolate covered onion or a chocolate covered cricket? and why would you choose that option?



I'd choose the cricket because I dont like onions and they're yucky raw.

day eight
15:48 Jan 28 2011
Times Read: 666

8.What color dominates your wardrobe? How do you feel when you wear that color? Why?



I'm not sure. I guess if you actually looked, it'd probably be navy blue or white. :P they're alright. i wear blue all the time for work.

02:25 Jan 28 2011
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im really bummed tonight. this sucks.

Day seven
22:25 Jan 27 2011
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7.If you could change your appearance, how would you decide to look?



I'd change my nose and my eyes so i dont have to wear glasses.

22:24 Jan 27 2011
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That school in florida is looking better and better every minute.



http://www.fullsail.edu/

22:23 Jan 27 2011
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soo my plans for this weekend are canceled. He asked me to not come because stuff happened and he doesnt want to me to see him down. :( sad day and theres a rumor that one of his classes is going to give him a ton of homework. Mom's going to be happy. -.- Now i can get that hoodie she wanted me to get. This sucks.

Day six
18:41 Jan 26 2011
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6.If you could change your name, what would your new name be?



I'd change it to Lilly or Lola.

20:58 Jan 25 2011
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I'm going to see Eldon this weekend. :) I'm kind of excited for it. Though i'm not sure about staying with Emily(his ex) for the night. She has sheets. I told him I'd bring a couple blankets. :P but whatever. :P none the less I'm excited to see him, it's been forever.

DaY fIvE
15:41 Jan 25 2011
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5.What do you have to put up with in your life? How long have you been tolerating it?



lots of things, but the one thing that really bothers me is that I still have to put up with britany and wait on her and pretend nothing has gone wrong. i've been dealing with it since she decided to take my heart, break it into a million pieces, and hand it back to me.

day four
01:31 Jan 25 2011
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4.What is your biggest strength? How did you develop it?



I'm not sure. =\

04:48 Jan 24 2011
Times Read: 686

saw britany today at her work. She continously stared at me. -.- It pissed me off. :P Ashly took our order and everything. We chatted. Britany took the next customer's orders and she brought the food to them after we got ours, and she spilt the lettuce salad allover the lady customer. She wasnt very happy with britany. :P I couldnt help but laugh at her. The lady threw a couple pieces of lettuce on the floor and Britany looked like she was going to kill her. she was probably thinking "really?! im not picking that up". So she brought the new salad out and made the lady take it off the tray. well, two things. I got my laugh in for the day and I believe I'm over her. ^_^ i didnt even get all excited when I saw her today. She probably thinks I still care for her. ugh! she drives me crazy to be honest. :P

day 3
19:23 Jan 23 2011
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3.What do you think is your biggest flaw? What have you done about it?



I'm too quiet. I've started to speak my mind. :)

day two
02:14 Jan 23 2011
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2.What would make you feel embarrassed in public?



yelling my name or yelling at me in front of people.

02:05 Jan 22 2011
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Soo the front end is getting rid of two of the css/csm(customer service supervisor/customer service manager) and one is moving to frozen or dairy or something like that. he's going to be an ms(merchandise supervisor) over there. yes! now we just have to get rid of betsy! benny's gone. i got along with him alright, but Betsy and I dont that much. =\ Oh well... I hope they hire someone for Betsy's position soon so we can get rid of her too and have two new css's. Gina's going to take over Benny's spot. ^_^

Day one
20:13 Jan 21 2011
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1.What is that thing that no one, not even your partner, your mother or your best friend, knows about you?



I tell them that when I tried weed, when i was with Britany,I didnt like it. I actually enjoyed it quite a bit and I'd do it again with her if I had the chance.

sixty two day challenge
20:07 Jan 21 2011
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1.What is that thing that no one, not even your partner, your mother or your best friend, knows about you?

2.What would make you feel embarrassed in public?

3.What do you think is your biggest flaw? What have you done about it?

4.What is your biggest strength? How did you develop it?

5.What do you have to put up with in your life? How long have you been tolerating it?

6.If you could change your name, what would your new name be?

7.If you could change your appearance, how would you decide to look?

8.What color dominates your wardrobe? How do you feel when you wear that color? Why?

9.Which song do you sing only when you’re alone? What memory does it bring back?

10.Whom do you secretly envy? Why?

11.What do you really want? But really…

12.What is the way you often sabotage yourself?

13.Who would you like to please the most?

14.What do you think a stranger’s first impression of you would be?

15.What recurring dream do you have? What do you think is the message your subconscious is sending you through that dream?

16.What would you try now if you were sure you wouldn’t fail?

17.What was that thing you never tried because you were afraid of failure?

18.What was your greatest disappointment in life?

19.As a kid, what did you dream of becoming when you grew up?

20.What are you really good at?

21.What can you do better?

22.What worries you the most when you think about your future?

23.What really sucks in your life? Who has the power to change it?

24.What is your life really about? What is your purpose in life?

25.What fear could wake you in the middle of the night?

26.What joy could wake you in the middle of the night?

27.What are you grateful for?

28.What time of the day do you feel the most energetic? And what do you usually do in those moments?

29.If you knew you had only one week to live, how and with whom would you spend it?

30.Why do you think your most favorite film touches you so deeply?

31.If you could be a fictional character from a movie or a novel, who would you want to be? Why?

32.What are you really bad at?

33.Who would you like to forgive and forget?

34.Do you often hear your inner voice? What does it usually tell you?

35.When was the last time you cried without anyone seeing you? And why?

36.What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you?

37.What’s your most striking physical attribute? Do you like it?

38.If you had the opportunity to go back in time and make a change, would you still want to have the same parents?

39.If you could go back in time and change things, how would you alter the last ten years?

40.If you could get rid of one of your responsibilities today, what would that be?

41.What is the biggest lie you tell yourself?

42.What do you think is missing in your life?

43.What do you think is the biggest injustice that was ever done to you?

44.What type of person angers you the most?

45.Who never fails to make you feel good about yourself?

46.If you could start all over again, what would you want to study?

47.Which type of intelligence do you wish you had: kinetic, visual, interpersonal, linguistic or mathematical?

48.What is your biggest pet peeve?

49.What was the one opportunity you always believed you’ve missed out on?

50.What do you like about yourself the most?

51.What do you regret the most?

52.What is the most hurtful thing you’ve ever witnessed? Why did it affect you?

53.What would you like most to be acknowledged for in your life?

54.What is the first thought that usually crosses your mind the second you open your eyes in the morning?

55.What is that thing about yourself you’re sick and tired of?

56.Who really depends on you? Why?

57.What was the main factor that played a role in your biggest mistake?

58.What was the main factor that played a role in your biggest success?

59.What childhood memory sizzles your heart?

60.What was the most frustrating period in your creative life?

61.Do you love yourself?

62.If you were your own coach, how would you guide yourself?

04:21 Jan 21 2011
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I'm super tired. -.- I was going to go to aberdeen tomorrow, but then i decided not to. I'm going to save my money and go up next weekend where i can spend more time up there instead of just a few hours. :)

tell me what you think :)
03:30 Jan 21 2011
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live life. be happy. be sad. be angry. be disgusted. make mistakes. make friends. meet new people. lose friends because of stupidity. fall in love. fall out of love. go down the path that you think is right. if it's not life will put you back on the right one. life is an adventure. get fusterated. throw things. cry. laugh. smile. roll your eyes. challenge people. think out loud. scream. you never know when that moment is when you can't do that anymore. live every moment like it's your last moment. hug. kiss. travel. write. take pictures. do something you dont' think you can do. paint. sing. move. see things you want to see. make people angry. make 'em laugh. make enemies. challenge yourself. talk on the phone for hours. live life, but live it in your own way. there's only one of you. no one can make up for you.



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03:57 Jan 18 2011
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my eyes hurt. -.- i need to find myself a lady. xD not a bitch either cause i already had one of those and i dont want another. :P

16:09 Jan 17 2011
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I havent fallen off the earth yet. :)

00:30 Jan 16 2011
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soo when britany and i were friends, she promised me she wouldnt cut her hair. Well, on Wednesday she came to walmart and got her haircut and it made me sad. :( Jordan stood outside the haircut place and was staring at me. It made me laugh. I miss her so much.



we went to the fighter today. It was an excellent movie. ^_^ It was hard to understand at times. I wanted to go to see True Grit or the witch movie, but Andrew got his way again.



I work an 8:30 to 4:30 tomorrow. gross. and then monday i work 4 to 8. ew.

challenge two days 24-30 questions 1-8
02:32 Jan 14 2011
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1- What do you think about dreams?

dreams are stupid. :P



2- How well do you do around blood? Does it make you squirmy?

i get squirmy but not as squirmy as some people.



3- What are some things that can almost always make your day better? Do you find yourself having a lot of bad days, or mostly good days?

being with people that i love and music and photography. i have in between days. :)



4- What are your thoughts on globilization?

im not sure.



5- To you, what is art? What classifies something as abstract art?

im not sure about this either. :P



6- How would you describe the city you live in? How’s your neighborhood?

the "city" is a town. :) its dumb. my neighboord is stupid too. :P



7- How would you describe your clothing style? Is there a specific reason you dress the way you do? how do you describe my style? im not sure.



8- What bugs you most about your generation? What do you like most about your generation?

people have kids already and they're like 15 and 13 and even younger. :P im not sure about what i like about my generation

challenge one days 24,25,26,27,28,29,and 30 and questions 24-30
02:23 Jan 14 2011
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24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?

im not sure. =\



25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?

i'm not sure about that either...cause im not a parent. :P



26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

I was truly happy when Britany and I were in eachother's arms just holding eachother. :) It made me super happy.♥



27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?

I'm worried about Britany. She's stupid and a druggie. I dont think she'll ever be okay.



28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?

truth up front but gently.



29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?

i wouldnt be gettting up early in the morning. :P



30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.

this last month ive seen britany a few times and it's made me miss her so much more than normally.

02:31 Jan 12 2011
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Happy birthday to Kaitlyn! :) i love you deary. ♥



tomorrow is my birthday. woo! i dont even get a cake. -.- it's going to be such a great day. -.- but that means it'll be a year from tomorrow that i can sell the alcohol and drink it legally. ^_^ woohoo!

challenge one day 23 question 23
23:15 Jan 11 2011
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23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.



next month im going to save up as much as i can and i'm going to move to arizona.



next year i'm going to go to school.



three years ill meet the woman of my dreams. xD



fives years we'll be happy. xD

challenge two day 23 question nine
23:05 Jan 11 2011
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9- What are you attracted to most in the same/opposite sex? Are you more for looks, or personality?



i'm more of a personality type of person. :) i usually fall for their smile,eyes, and their laugh. :)

15:17 Jan 10 2011
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i'm tired.

two days till my birthday! tomorrow's kaitlyn's birthday. (: woohoo!

challenge one day 22 question 22
15:14 Jan 10 2011
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22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.



negative:

im too quiet.



positive:

They can always come talk to me. :)

challenge two day 22 question ten
15:13 Jan 10 2011
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10- What are you least attracted to in the same/opposite sex?



jeeze... im not sure. :P

challenge one days 20 and 21 questions 20 and 21
03:16 Jan 10 2011
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20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.



river flows into you by yiruma



21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?



I thought it was neat. i love doing these things. :) I'm sure it does say something about me. i dont know what though. :)

challenge 2 days 20 and 21 questions 11 and 12
03:14 Jan 10 2011
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11- What do you think our planet would look like in 10 years? How about 20 years?

I see the world 10 times worse than it is today. more pollution stupid people more druggies. ect.

20 years will be even worse.



12- Are you into the green movement? Should being enviromentally friendly something everyone should be a part of?

I'm not into the green movement. I think everyone should be a part of it just because they're treating our planet like crap.

03:22 Jan 08 2011
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saw britany tonight. she had to wait on me. :P and every time she cleaned off a table, she'd walk past our table and if she was on the other side, she'd walk to the back but she'd be looking at our table. haha i think she still feels something for me. i think there's a waiting list for people to kick her ass. :) I miss her a lot, though i wish i could kick her ass well.

challenge one day nineteen question nineteen
23:02 Jan 07 2011
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19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?



I'd be in Vanersborg,Sweden because that's where the minority live in sweden. They have people from somalia to iran to afghanistan to iraq and everywhere in between from the middle east fleeing from their country. That's where I'd be and I'd be helping them make aquaintances with the swedes.

day nineteen challenge two question 13
22:58 Jan 07 2011
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13- Do you think you’d be able to put together and preform a decent stand up comedy act? What would you talk about?





No sir I dont't think I'd be able to do that. :P

challenge one question eighteen day eighteen
15:35 Jan 06 2011
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18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?



I have a ton of extended family. ^_^ I have family allover the world. :) from japan to ethiopia to sweden to new york to chicago to nebraska to south dakota. They're all amazing. I love them all.

challenge two day eighteen question 14
15:33 Jan 06 2011
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14- What would be the hardest and most fearful thing you would ever have to face in your lifetime? Why does this scare you so much?



I'm not too sure about that. I've faced my fear of flying. :)

02:58 Jan 06 2011
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I'm tired. -.- it's been a long day. we were really super busy today. it pissed me off.

15:28 Jan 05 2011
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a whole week till my birfday! xD i'm excited

challenge one day seventeen question seventeen
15:28 Jan 05 2011
Times Read: 750

17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?



The last person I kissed was britany back in like august. :) I'm 99.99999% she hates my guts. I got to see her yesterday(1/4/11) and she looks good. :) I miss her like a lot. I think she'd try to pick up from the last time we talked, which was just small talk.

challenge two question 15 day seventeen
15:25 Jan 05 2011
Times Read: 751

15- What do you honestly think about your looks? Do they cross your mind much?



I may not be this size 0 like everyone else, but i like the way i look. I hate my nose though. :P They cross my mind sometimes but thats about it.

challenge one day sixteen quesiton sixteen
03:59 Jan 05 2011
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16. What are you passionate about?



changing the world. gay rights. making others happy.

challenge two day sixteen question 16
03:50 Jan 05 2011
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16- Whats your biggest piss off/pet peve? Why?



liars, cheaters, meanies, homophobes, bullies, heart breakers, impatient people, complainers.



I've had all these people in my life and they know they piss me off, and they use it.

03:44 Jan 05 2011
Times Read: 758

eight days till my birthday. im excited for it. ^_^



saw britany and jordan this morning. I got all weak-kneed,nervous,and excited. she was looking at my boobs and was all "is that a bruise on your tit?" I told her no but I had one on my chest. She asked how i got that and I told her i didnt know. that's the most she's talked to me since she broke my heart. :P I miss her alot. I want to talk to her and see if I can become friends with her again, maybe even closer than we were earlier. (:

19:33 Jan 03 2011
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nine days till my birfday! xD i think im excited.

Challenge one day fifteen question fifteen
19:33 Jan 03 2011
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15. What do you believe in? And not just God or atheism.





I can't tell you that I dont believe in God or Atheism because I'm not sure what I believe myself. I do believe that we're all put on this earth for a purpose, we just have to find it. I believe in God, but I dont practice christianity. I used to be this diehard christian, then up with people came into my life and it changed my perspective on everything. I'm no longer that diehard christian. I'm not exactly sure what I believe in anymore.

challenge two question 17 day fifteen
19:27 Jan 03 2011
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17- Do you believe in social classes?



no i dont believe in social classes.

02:19 Jan 03 2011
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woww 1100 entries throughout the years. :P is that bad?

02:01 Jan 03 2011
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soo i screwed up. it's ten days till my birfday! i'm going to be two decades old. :P not sure how i feel about that. :P



anyway... happy second day of a new year. :)

challenge one day fourteen question 14
18:01 Jan 02 2011
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14. When you are stressed, what can you use as an outlet? Why do you think it helps you?



I write it out, listen to music, talk to friends. I mostly talk to friends. When I was on tour with up with people I wrote it out in my journal, and there was some days where I was constantly writing in there. Then I found Emil and life just kind of got better. Our chats were something I still cherish. He's amazing. :)

challenge two day 14 question 18
17:55 Jan 02 2011
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18- How would you like your life to change over the next few years? How come?



I'd like to see my life go in the direction of not having bad friends and people supporting me. I used to have bad friends and no one would support me. I'd just like to be happy. :)

01:33 Jan 02 2011
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Happy first ya'll! :) I didnt miss it! hope you all have a great first day of a new year. (: mine's been quite boring, but i was outside today and i walked in the snow and it came up to my knees! Thank you and welcome to south dakota. fuck the snow i'm moving to arizona. xD anyone wana come with?

challenge one day 13 question 13
19:18 Jan 01 2011
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13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?



I see her being successful and having a family and being married.



I see Danko being stupid and fat. :p

challenge two day 13 question 19
19:16 Jan 01 2011
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19- Do you think it’s better to have a few close best friends or to have a lot of acquaintances? Which do you have?



I think it's better to have a couple best friends than a lot of aquaintances. I have two bestfriends.

19:13 Jan 01 2011
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happy new year ya'll. hope it treats you well. (:



12 days till my birthday!

Challenge One day 12 question 12
00:11 Jan 01 2011
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12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?



I think I'd trade lives with a stoner or a drug dealer for a week. I know their lives are lame, but I'd like to live their lives just for a week, just to see how everything happens.

Challenge Two Day 10 Question 20
00:05 Jan 01 2011
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20- How has your school life been throughout the years?





My school life was great throughout elementary. I love elementary. I hated reading though. I could never get enough points. Middleschool was okay. I got teased really bad. I was never a smartass back then, so i just let them be mean to me. As in grades for highschool I was horrible. As for socialism, I was still a reject. I was still teased but not as bad because we were in highscool and we were growing up.