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stupid headphones. Sitting here listening to music when the right speaker decides to blow out. Thought i went partially deaf for a second. I don't know why but these damn things never last long with me. Neither can chairs come to think of it.

More on this athlete's foot nonsense... i swear i must have been adopted because these people are fucking dumb.



So, because what ever i have on my foot is getting worse, my family finally, FINALLY believes me that the spray isn't working. BUT instead of taking me to the doctor to get it diagnosed and properly treated, they're magic plan is to take me to the beech and soak me feet in the salt water for a half hour, like salt is some kinda "cure all" or something.



Salt is a damn preservative. It dries out the skin, like the spray, but it lacks all of the other chemicals that the spray has to kill the fungus or whatever the hell it is. So, while it'll look like it's fine for a day or two, that's just because the skin on the surface is dried out. When the moisture comes back, so will the scale look. Am i wrong here? Is salt really a freakin quick fix or am i right and my family is just a bunch of stupid fucking people?



I'm tempted to ask my friend's family to bring me to a clinic. At least they're smart.

These are just the tests i took on that dating site. Putting the results and the links in case anyone wants to take them, though i think you'll have to make an account for results, not sure.



-The can you be a freerunner ??? Test

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-can-you-be-a-freerunner-test





Average



You scored 39 freerunner!

You did good and for that I would be happy to give you advice to expand your knowledge and talent



-The Japanese Demon Profile Test

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-japanese-demon-profile-test





Tengu



You scored 11 in Malice and 23 in Chaos!

Tengu are birdlike demons which inhabit the woodlands and mountains. They come in two classes: Higher tengu and lower tengu. Higher tengu occupy their own kingdoms which mirror those of humans; they dress in fancy clothes, beautiful silks, and wear jewelry and crowns. Lower tengu are little more than bird/human hybrids who flit from tree to tree and serve the higher tengu. Both higher and lower tengu have red faces and long noses.



Tengu are very mischievous creatures who love to torment humans-- not out of cruelty, but because they find practical jokes amusing. They often interrupt those who take their work seriously in media res by swooping down and hanging their 'victims' on tree limbs by their pants. They have a very strange sense of humor. At times, however, they can overstep the boundaries of good taste and cause genuine harm, as in cases where they kidnap and traumatize children.



Tengu are also fierce warriors and highly skilled archers and hunters; they will gladly take any worthy humans as disciples and train them to be good rulers and soldiers. They will also teach supernatural arts to priests, although at a cost; those who use these newly acquired supernatural powers for their own benefit become tengu themselves.



-The Could you be a Gunslinger Test

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-could-you-be-a-gunslinger-test





The Good (alive)



You scored 80% vigilanteness, 26% outlawsity and 97% quickdraw skill!



You are the hero. You're tough, cunning, and have the skills necessary to be a gunslinger. You're not bound by a badge, so your justice is final. You don't play games. You're probably taciturn and solitary, but that's what you have to be. Your vendetta requires sacrifice.



And like all cinema heroes, you win. You defeated your enemy in that showdown. Its likely your vendetta ended with him. You'll either continue your life as a bounty hunter, or simply settle down somewhere. Whatever you do, you'll probably have a Hollywood ending. Not that that's bad.



What can I say, the movie/game/book would be about you. You'd ride off into the sunset, and you might also get the guy/girl.



-The Real Zombie Attack Survival Test

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-real-zombie-attack-survival-test





Confident Commander



You scored 57 Survival, 80 Leadership, and 85 Psychological!

You obviously have some talent in leadership areas. And the fact that you remain so calm you're almost comatose in a hazardous situation is a good mix. Odds are you'll find somebody who can do your shooting for you. Estimated Survival Time: 1 Week

Was playing Morrowind today and I freakin love the hand to hand fighting. There's nothing special as far as moves go in the regular game but it's an awesome tactical choice.



For robbing people - if they catch you, you can knock them out and run instead of killing them. Still get the bounty for assaulting but it's a lot better than killing. Plus when they're unconscious you can loot the body just like they're dead. So mugging rich people is fun!



And in combat, once hand to hand skill is high enough you start doing some massive damage to stamina so you can pretty much knock anyone out before they do any massive damage, even if they got an axe! Then when they're unconscious, switch to the sword and gut their ass! Works wonders against a lot of people at once.



Gonna make some hand to hand mods to add some animated moves for the game. There are some out there already but i actually have some ideas that aren't used yet, to my surprise. Specifically gonna work on a neck snapping and throat slitting animation. Got my inspiration from the games "untitled book" which is a really damn fun read.



And a quick little rant. I don't see why people complain about hand to hand effecting stamina instead of health when conscious. I mean, realistically, unless you know some advanced martial arts, you're gonna knock someone out long before you kill them with straight up punching. Look at boxing for example, yeah being punched hurts but it's not like the kinda hurt you get when you're stabbed with a sword or something.

Saw the movie The Book of Eli today. My Father's 3-3 for movies he picked which is a lot better than he is at picking video games.

I swear the movie got its inspiration from Fallout because aside from the religious factor, it's practically the same. Making me really wanna play Fallout 3 again but the game's way too damn loud, can actually tell my hearing is slightly worse but once you play games through a headset, playing them without one seems lacking. So saving my hearing for Fallout New Vegas.



Movie has a pretty cool twist in it too. Not a conspiracy kinda twist but it makes the already bad ass main character about 10 times more bad ass.

To my surprise i found a girl i like on one of those dating sites. Like me, she's a shut-in, a very, very attractive shut in who is also addicted to video games. So there's 2 pluses right there. Apparently she's never been in a relationship before so that kinda purity might be just what i need to ensure she's actually loyal and not just playing me.

Plus my gut says she's a good find, and after the Kristen fiasco i've decided to trust my gut instead of my reasoning in relationships. See how that goes. After all, if i trusted my gut with Kristen i'd of broken it off because of how suspicious at all felt.



It might be naive but i have high hopes so we'll see what happens.



*Well i think that ended utterly horribly. My fault this time. She looked a lot skinnier in her pictures than she appeared on the web cam, so i asked her weight. I tried to be nice about it but i suppose there's just no way to be nice when asking that type of question. Think i ended up really upsetting her, like really really upsetting her. If there was ever a time i felt like a horrible person, it's now.

I fucking hate this athlete's foot. I don't know what the hell I'm doing wrong but it just will not go away. Still have no transportation to get to the doctor so i have to rely on my parents to get more anti fungal sprays - which don't work apparently.



I don't understand it though.

I wash my feet thoroughly in the shower.

Dry them off thoroughly.

Spray the Lotramin on them and rub it all in.

Don't wear socks.



Everything looks fine for the hour or two after the Lotramin is put on and then the redness and scaliness comes back and it's like i didn't even do anything. I looked online and i have all the symptoms of Athlete's foot aside from the itching. Every website says you're supposed to experience severe itching but i don't itch at all. Only way you can tell I have it is by looking at it. If i have another type of foot fungus i have no idea what it could be. Everything else is the same. The fungus in the toe webbing, the fissures on the top and sides of the foot, the reflective, scale looking...stuff. Whatever it is it's annoying the piss out of me.



Wish i had some other form of transportation aside from family because they're too bogged down to help.



*You know, it might actually be in this damn house. I never got it before in the old house and i am honestly horrible with hygiene. But here, no matter how well i take care of myself the fungus never goes away. My grandpa works outside constantly and this house is humid as hell because he's too cheap to turn on air conditioning so maybe he's spreading it around? If that's the case i'm gonna be stuck with this shit for another school year at the very least. Guess i shouldn't mention this to a potential date yeah? Though it's really not al that bad, just annoying.

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MsMedusa
15:31 Jul 21 2010

Sounds like oral medication is needed now. Sometimes the skin ointment is not enough. Don't forget to wash all shoes, flip flops, socks etc, if you haven't already.

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Came up with this cool explanation for the mindset difference between atheism and blind faith, just came into my head out of no where and actually got praise from my best friend, who never complements anyone. hahaha



it was

"would you rather

A - walk into a well lit room

B - jump off a cliff in pitch darkness

There might be a nice fluffy mattress at the bottom of the cliff, or a nice sharp spike, either way you won't know until you hit the bottom. With the room, even if you don't like what you see, you can still see it."



Of course we all don't know what'll happen till we die, it still got the point across. My friend was quiet for a good 30 seconds before saying "There's no way you could have came up with that on your own."

mind was kinda wondering today, for some reason got to thinking about the Elder Scrolls series and found something kinda cool.



Not going into detail on it because i simply do not feel like it, hahaha but based on the events in Morrowind and some events that are mentioned in Oblivion the creators have the ability to use a pretty interesting conspiracy if they so choose. Not sure if it was intentional or not but some story elements line together perfectly for it, if it's really what they're gonna do i'm gonna laugh like freakin hell.

more kirsten paranoia, yay. hahaha a close friend of mine brought up a very interesting point that i didn't consider, so i'm irritating the situation between her and i to see if he's right.



I have to agree with my "stalker" label at this point but whatever, i'm only a stalker if i'm wrong, funny how it works out like that. At least i'm not violent or anything, i'm not the one threatening to kill someone over this, and i'm keeping that in my back pocket just in case either kristen or eric need a little "incentive" to see things my way for a time.



Either that or i further complicate their already complicated lives with legal BS



* at this point, even if i am right the stress isn't worth it to continue. So fuck it, i'm single, and a stalker! I take that as a complement though, not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I still don't see how wanting to talk often labels me a stalker though, just delete the damn messages if it bothers you that much.

ya know what pisses me off about this whole Kristen fiasco more than anything else? The fact that i was tricked into a cheating relationship. The thing i hate more than anything else in the world, the thing i wish people were put to death for, i was involved in. Grant it i didn't know or i'd of ended it right there but it still happened and it still makes me cringe every time i think on it. I always had that choke that "if i ever cheat i'll commit ritual suicide right after" but i suppose the joke's on me now eh? Not that i'm actually considering it (mainly because i don't own a gun or pills and am too scared to use a knife) but for the moment that seems to be the only way to regain my lost honor.



What i don't get is what the hell could she have gotten from this? It's a long distance relationship for crying out loud. Certainly no sex involved, unless you count cybering but that's like 10% as good as the real thing. I didn't buy her anything or spend any money on her at all, though i offered, she had the kindness to turn them all away, so i still have money which i suppose is nice.



The only thing i could think of is she did it for pity over the thing with jessie, which i still asked her if it was for pity and she denied even that. She is either a very cruel person behind that sweet sweet exterior or a fucking dumbass with more hallow space in her head than she lets on.



I decided to look through a few dating sites, not that i was expecting anything but i got nothing better to do. So far it's gone about as well as i expected. That being i've been rejected by 50+ girls already. Even the nerdy girls looking for someone who enjoys playing video games till all hours.



More than anything i was turned down for my visual impairment. Which, despite knowing this wasn't gonna work, still is a self esteem killer. I mean c'mon you girls all turn into the anti-Christ once a month and i don't mind. Why focus on something you can't fix? Was thinking about taking that part off the profile but then if i somehow do find a date, won't last long. As soon as i arrive in a taxi because i'm too blind to drive i may as well be getting back in for the return trip home.



The only bright side from this is that i spent the last 8 months in a state of pure bliss. Pure bliss that was about as real as something on a video game, which is pathetic. I would have honestly rather have spent the last 8 months in misery but knowing what's going on than spend it happy in a complete lie.



Hopefully karma will kick in and she'll get what she deserves - being shoved literally under a bus, or a train, which ever is closest.

probably paranoid as shit but i don't think kristen's "bf" was telling the truth.



Was too in shock to remember this yesterday but she did mention him when we first met.



Said she was with him for 2 years but he broke up with her the day after her birthday because she wouldn't move to kansas with him. She told me he still thinks she's his but she doesn't talk to him hardly at all.



Then she has an unexpected falling out with her family and is kicked out, having no where to go she moves in with him, that's my hypothesis at least. I'd say there's a 30% chance it's right but it gives me something to hope for.



One thing i don't understand is why she didn't tell me directly. He did all the talking and made the death threat, then cowered when i mentioned the police. hahaha She's 22 years old, well old enough to fight her own battles.



Then there are the conversations i "squired". One in particular is asking kristen if she hooked back up with eric back in mid 2009. that of course got a "no" response.



I'm keeping everything active for a couple more weeks so, if she wants to, she has an easy time reaching me on other things aside from facebook.



In denial, probably but we'll see. our relationship was too damn good to just give up on by a damn rumor.

my kristen left me today, i think. mind's kinda going crazy so i can't analyze the situation like normal.



had a nice chat with her "bf" a few minuets ago and now, once again, i am lost.



why does this shit always happen? I'm a good person damn it! i treat my girls well, help them when i can, take care of them and they always have someone else on the fucking side!



even my twin betrayed me. guess she's not so much my twin then but still...all those empty promises. Wouldn't be so bad if she was just honest with me about it. But no, she lies straight to my face the entire time.



i'm just glad this wasn't during college. Last thing i need would be to go part way insane during a mid term or something.



al least i still have my video games, now if only i was still famous.

Decided to play a round of Civilization Revolution because i had nothing better to do and communist Russian kicked some major ass!



It was a fun round had Russia - my country, against the Americans, Arabs and French. I think there was one other country but I never found them through the course of the round so i don't remember.



In the beginning I scouted the territory and set up these defenses with warriors groups on choke points to kinda section off a large chunk of land specifically for me. Only way other countries could get past would be to declare war. The Arabs wee the first country to do so, and the damn Fundamentalism made it difficult to hold my defenses against their never freakin ending legion armies. But i kinda bribed the French to go to war with them which made them run like hell to defend their crap cities so their offense didn't last more than a few hundred years.



For about 60% of the round it was just building up my cities and maintaining relations with French and America while they kick the shit out of the Arabs, which was fun to watch.



Government wise i went from Despotism to a Republic to Monarchy and then to Communism. By that point my cities were close enough together that the massive hit to culture attributed to Communism didn't effect me at all and the increase in production allowed me to shit out T34 tanks and bomber aircraft like there was no tomorrow. Even had a superior navy which is something i hardly ever focus on in other campaigns.



After i was all geared up i waged an all out offensive against the Arabs, who still only had legions and catapults so it was an utter massacre. S0mehow though a catapult managed to shoot down one of my bomber aircraft which i have no idea how that was even possible.



While i was kicking some serious Arab ass America was putting the French in their place just as quickly. Both of us managed to eliminate the Arabs and French and then our main forces met on the dividing line between where those territories were and we pretty much destroyed each other. America won that engagement but all they had left was a single tank army. Thanks to my production bonus i shat out 12 tank armies in the next couple of years and swept into US occupied France and took 3 of the 8 captured cities for myself. Then it was a war of the spies.



US was trying for a technological victory so they kept building spaceship parts, i kept sending spy rings in to destroy the parts just before they were built, and in the meantime building my own space ship parts 3 times as fast. To seal the deal i finally just sent a nuclear bomb into the US capital and sent my infantry and tank armies out to occupy the surrounding cities. The US was reduced to a single city on a tiny little island off the coast that i surrounded with my cruisers and submarines while i build the biggest spaceship possible.



it was awesome!