what is one to do when their heart is being pulled two ways? one way to something one knows, one loves, security. one that one has made commitment to. but the other way, to longing, to the unknown, to something that person has never dreamed of? of one that understands. but hurting. pain knowing they hurt the one they were with. feels like falling. falling through darkness. never ending....
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nobodysfallenangel
11:43 May 09 2009
I am with someone myself, but not really. She is 4 hours away, and really she is all honeymoon stage and we have been together a year, and she cheated on me, and used me for her security. She did not care about mine until now, and like with her I am over it. She is not who I truly want. He knows he is, and I would never ask him to make a choice. It hurts that is what he chose and I respect that. I don't hate him for like being loyal to his betrothed, cos I am exactly the same way. Why can't we just have our friendship. Like how is it ok for him to be able to check up on me, and catch up with me, and he gets to shut himself away, and talk it out, and come to the conclusion we can be friends, and not be so cold about it. I love him, and want him to be happy in any decision he makes. I will not shut him out, because that is where we are different!