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I hate not being able to sleep. Granted, I am definitely nocturnal and ALWAYS have been but sleep is still a necessary evil of the human body. Unfortunately mine seems to enjoy the torture of the mental masturbation that accompanies what I have called Terminal Insomnia!



I didn't realize til a few years ago that this issue is one I have dealt with nearly all of my life. I used to fight with my mother from a very young age to let me stay up and watch "Creature Features!" Not once did I begin to nod off or get grumpy, as most 6 y/o children do when tired. You see, that was the problem. I was never tired at night even when my mom tried to retrain my body with strict schedules for sleep and wakefulness.



It is only now, that I am in my 40's that I desperately wish I could sleep unaided by pharmacology or a good mind fuck. My body has tricked itself into believing I rarely need sleep anymore. The mental toll can be unimaginable.



Have you ever seen a purple bull frog with pink and green polka dots? I have....after being without sleep for 10 days. It is not fun though Im sure some would find my sleep deprivation psychosis quite entertaining. For me though it's just a fact of life I've had to learn to live with for so long.



Ah to sleep per chance to dream! What a wonderful feeling that would be.