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Two years ago today my beloved mother passed away from a hard battle with Cancer. I still sometimes start to text her or call her number to tell her stuff that has happened and I forget sighs. It happens not that often anymore but still. I miss calling her and going shopping with her and just being around her. She had a heart of gold and never showed weakness unless she wanted to show that side of herself. She was there for my daughter's birth, she was there for my gallbladder surgery and everything in between. It is so hard sometimes to find someone to talk too that had her wisdom and or just to vent too. She never gave me advice unless I asked for it. She told me never want to be like me, never repeat my mistakes and most importantly, just be a loving mother, and try your best. She said you can read all the books in the world but it cannot teach you everything about being a mom. Nobody is the perfect mother and you will never be one as I was never the perfect mother, I just learned from my mistakes and took advice from my own mother.

I laugh at those words now because I need her advice so much now as my daughter is reaching that certain age that I was and let me tell you I am not liking the changes happening with her...lol I know it is part of growing up but these are the times I wish she was still a baby and I was able to cope with the changing of diapers and breastfeeding etc. Now it is a total different ball game and I am not sure I am ready for those types of innings.

MMM I have seen the streaming thing and so many negative points on it. I wonder if it is really worth adding anything to the Stream when someone or people just hate the stuff you put on anyway, it is not just mine but a lot of them now. I guess people just like to be mean.

Well got our electric fencing up now. We have lost a lot of our garden this year and we wanted to save what we have left. Now it is time to relax and just watch some tv. I guess this is what you get when you live in the country but hey I rather have some fresh produce than none at all.