She loves him deeply and she craved showing him just how much. She tried to think of ways to show him but it was too intense and passionate for her to think clearly. She felt almost trapped in her head but in a good way. The way that she desperately needed for a long time now. She couldn't believe that she actually found someone who wanted her so badly. She thought she would be alone until the day she died but she couldn't deny what was happening, nor did she want to. What was happening was so amazing and wonderful, she had never felt this before and didn't ever want it to stop. She wanted this moment to last forever.
After a while she gave up and desided that just simply showing him her pleasure would suffice. She let go of all of it and just focused on the moment. After a while they laid in each others arms resting slowly falling asleep.
She was just about to fall asleep when he said " hey, just so you know, I know how you feel there is no need to figure out a way to show me anything. I know"
The air grew cold and quiet. The smell of blood sent chills down everyone's spine. Everyone in the room felt sick and we're unable to speak. No one could have guessed this would happen.
She laid there no longer moving, no longer living. She was as different as anyone could be. Even among the outcasts she was an outcast. She rarely spoke and she wore different clothes from the normal uniform everyone else wore. No one dared to talk to her except for a few teachers. No one knew anything about her. No one ever saw her walking home, no one saw her have anything personal, she never even smiled. She used to move a table to the corner at lunch so she could eat alone and keep an eye out for approaching threats. She wasn't normal but she shouldn't have died.
Someone once tried to talk to her at lunch but she continued as if he wasn't there. He tried for days to get her to talk to him, just one word but she remained silent. He tried to follow her home one day to see if she just didn't want to talk in public but she seemed to vanish around a corner. She became the mystery everyone wanted to figure out. He tried for weeks to get her to talk to him. He became obsessed with getting to know her.I heard that one day she finally let him follow her home and that she actually spoke to him. Maybe one day we will be able to ask him what she said to him but I don't think it will be a while because they took him away to a hospital. He was covered in her blood and I think he suffered from a broken heart. See whatever she said to him made him fall in love with her you could see it on his face when she smiled at him.
That smile is what ended her life. There was another who wanted her and became insane with jealousy. She had never smiled or really looked at anyone before and he was angry that she didn't choose him.
She became a part of all of us. Someone always pushes a table to the corner every day and it just sits there melancholy and empty. We all miss her watching over us like a guardian. A part of us died that day and we will always remember it.
He sat there on the edge of the bed with his hand over his mouth completely silent. His eyes were wide and filled with disbelief. He had realized his mistake.
He had felt justified at the time with what he was doing. He didn't realize what he was doing to her. How could he have fully understood what his actions were doing? No one could've guessed that a life would've been lost. He just wanted a new experience and a chance at love. He never realized he had already found it with her, but not just love a deep and binding love. Only after everything was done and over with did he felt the ache deep within himself. An ache for her touch.
He knew there was no going back to her because when that life ended so did hers. She no longer cared for her life and there for no longer cared for love. He knew everytime she saw him she would only remember the pain. He wanted to hold her and make the pain go away but his touch would make the pain intensify. No amount of love could ever fix what he did, so he just sat there suffering silently in pain.
He would never speak a word to her or go near her ever again but every once in a while he would go where he knew she would be just to see how she was doing and to fill his head with images of her beauty.
The rain poured down on the flat roof as she laid there under her window, starring out wishing she could take the rain into her body. She could feel something deep inside her soul begging her to release herself. To let go of the world around her and melt into the place where she belonged. The rain gave her such a peaceful and beautiful feeling that lifted her up to a place that had no high or low, just happiness. She can no longer take it so she runs outside to the rain but before she gets out the door she's stopped by someone. They lead her away from the door and away from her happiness. She stares at the white door that is waiting to be opened but eventually turns her attention to that person. She carries on for weeks without the rain to calm her, she falls deeper and deeper into her dreams where she danced in the rain for days. She woke up each morning to the dry air that made her soul feel defeated. She feared falling into a deep dark place where she would remain beaten and sad but she could do nothing to prevent it.
She was trapped until one morning, she woke up to moisture in the air. She shot up with her heart rasing and her soul ready. She was ready to let go and this time she wasn`t going to be stopped. As she ran towards that door she heard someone calling out to her but she no longer cared. She reached for the handle and twisted it open but stopped. She smelled the refreshing scent of the rain and she looked out and watched as the rain drops covered everything in water. She paused only for a few moments, not wanting to rush anything. She heard something behind her getting closer but she knew she had to do this. She slowly and gracefully stepped out into the rain and as she did her whole body seemed to disappear with the rain leaving only that voice behind her. She was no longer in that world she was were she belonged. She had become the rain.
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