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I sit here at my computer with all of my much needed supplies, ciggerette's, water, brain enchancing suplemnt, and my own brain to help me work things out. The other night i wondered, "Why?", and that is the question dear readers. Why dont I take a nice razor across my wrists and throw in the towel. Game over, he gave it his best, but in the end his best was not good enough. Stanges thoughts rack throwugh my mind. "Maybe I missed everything the late 60's had to offer?" Maybe I should quit my job and go back to school, Maybe I am smoking too much grass, and maybe i shpuld kill myself and get all of this pathietic life over. Please forgive this miss spelled words dear readers, for i have been smoking a lot of grass and listening to the words of Hunter S. Thopson as the bible.

I have been thinking of suscide for a while now. My true calling in life as been acting, I love everything about drama. My problem is I am an out of work actor and it is making me bitter, My resume is as follows:

Two Indie Films

Radio commeriacl reading

Voice-over work on a cartoon that is taking to god dam long to be made.

That is it the whole thing, what i need is an agent, I am not looking to be the next big thing in hollywood. I just would like to work, no stage thopugh crowds make me nervous. I prey for help every night before I go to bed, I have sent my headshot and resume to every agent in San Francisco hoping someone will take a chance on the kid.So dear readers I look at the viens in my forearmand wonder, I have not made any attempts yet. But who knows what tomorrow will bring.

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hold

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything





What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt



I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here





What have I become

My ssweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt



If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

As I sit on a job for my boss watching a youthful Vampire in combat I walk around the arena and wonder, "Where do people like me go?" Believe me it was nerve racking, it is a hard thing to see yourself become out-dated. Sooner or later I am going to train a replacement, someone The Baron can depend on, trust his children and black market and underworld business operations too. Someone perfect, someone I can train.

But after the years training and the preparing what do i do than? Do i get put out to retire, do i become some kind of teacher start training more young vampires into the ways of service? Or do I just sit and wait? I ask cause the years are many and I'm only 212 years old.