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The harder you fight the tears

the faster they come.

the harder you breathe

the faster they flow



Dont fight them, its the only rule you broke.

Giving in, it was the only thought that broke you.



The louder you scream

the stronger the force

The weaker the will

the softer the blow



Close your eyes, the only thing you saw

Your curse, it was the only goal to reach.

Learn your goddamn lesson and get over it.

I was walking up the stairs

And i met a man who wasn't there.

He wasn't there again today.

I wish, i wish he'd go away.

One of my closest friends, a true artist and extremely talented.





A partially muscled skeleton stands beside the perimeter fence

and screams for three seconds

and god was born

not jehovah

but the nuclear messiah



Dr. Manhattan

oppenheimer on the cross



two shadows kiss at Hiroshima

etched into a concrete memory

kissing not knowing

what was coming



Flasback: Golgotha

hammering detonators through

christ’s palms



Santa claus

Snowshoeing through nuclear winter

fishing for survivors



bloody Rorschach’s

dapple snow angels



the nodus Gordii mountain

peaks the atmosphere of mars

the crown of a child

peaks the lips of its mother



a thermodynamic miracle

mankinds last act

will be to self destruct

at the pulpit



lamenting a hydrogen

messiah

My arms are heavy my arms are heavy my arms are heavy

molasses fog

no superman

no god



screaming through a cotton tongue

man in the shadows

he’s holding a machete



no one else can see him

he’s waiting for another mother

waiting for a baby sandwich



my sweat is cold my sweat is cold my sweat is cold

waiting to steal love

like grendel in the basement

and dorian on the canvas



screaming through lead eyelids

time gets stopped

to make men monsters



monsters make men

great

they slay their heroism



my lips are thick my lips are thick my lips are thick

screaming with a cornstarch mouth



my nightmares catch in my throat

and every morning I survive

to dream of monsters

and churchyards when my eyes go out again



my fists are hard my fists are hard my fists are hard

I hear your mother

in my ear

screaming at a 5 year old



he started it he started it He started it

martyr

monster

naïve as the devil

and as violent as the Nazarene



you got a light you got a light you got a light

fire in my lungs

destruction in my glass

theres is magic in my cave

and a monster in my head



I’m Fine I’m Fine

just leave me I’ll be fine

mantra of a madman



if I unwrite my life

where do I stand



there’s a girl at the fence

theres a boy at the fence

he plans to hurt me

I plan to hurt her



my past is heavy my past is heavy my past is heavy

fade out

fade in

gloss over it



screaming soundless at the walls

air like tar

eyes in a purple haze



a blue candy whale

and a monkey on my back



a sin without memory

and salvation turns its back



I am caliban

prospero turned his back

I am trying.

I want to get away from this pleasure.

Leave me, eat me.

oh god what i wouldn't give.

Just for one moment of excstacy.

Pure emotion.

Emotional Death.

i take it back...