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I have been sitting on this since the beginning of the week:

You know what’s funny is people thinking that they are entitled to my empathy after they hurt me. I don’t owe you a thing. I don’t even owe you forgiveness nor am I obligated to continue a relationship with you.
I owe you not a damned thing. I get to choose my life. I get to choose those who carry me through this life. I’m done giving others the opportunity to hurt me. I’m done giving people who don’t deserve me multiple chances to break my heart over and over again. I used to assimilate with the very people who hurt me for my survival. I refuse to put myself last. I used to constantly sacrifice myself so others could benefit from me. I’m not a child anymore I don’t have to assimilate with those who hurt me and don’t see my value as a person. I don’t have to assimilate with those who don’t sit right with my spirit or my morals. Yes I was nice to you but I still have my feelings about you. Feelings I have been having for a while now. I can separate them and still remain objective about the situation despite what most here think I am free to express myself genuinely that includes my wants and needs.
I mean if you want to make this a war of some kind that’s on you. I’m just unwilling to participate in it. I’m moving on.
Is this decision sabotage because I’m afraid of vulnerability? Or is the fact that I have been too empathetic with people who continually hurt me and drain my emotional energy with their nonsense the sabotage?
Either way both is self destructive but I’m just now understanding that I don’t owe anyone my empathy especially those who are hell bent on hurting me and taking advantage of my time and emotional energy.
I know people since the dawn of time gossip has been a past time of most people. I get venting about someone but if I’m honest it super draining to me but because I still do care about you it’s not something I’m willing to ask you to change about yourself. It’s a deal breaker for me now. I hope you understand my position. I apologize for my silence it takes me a good amount of time to process my emotions. I wasn’t giving the silent treatment. I needed time and sometimes it’s hard to say that when I’m overwhelmed. It’s okay to out grow people. Maybe we have just grown and it’s time to move on…