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I always seem to fall for the ones who are already taken or untouchable and it sucks. Well my real diloma is me and this person have evcountered one another in so many lives but there was always somthing keeping us apart his leadership or mine and once again we have encountered one another again like fate always does to us but fate can so often be cruel. In this life he is out of my reach again. See one of our problems is we are both dominate figures in our lives so were alfa and of course that makes for an even harder relationship. The problem is no matter how many men I have been with to try to replace or forget him it never works because nobody can replace the many things he provides me in my life like the hunt and the challenge whick I so crave terribly. I love sex and love to be tender just like everyone else but my opinion of what that is certainly differs from most women. First off being a celtic warrior princess I crave the hunt and more so the actual fight before the love and mine or his blood being spilled even turns me on more and well to many men that is strange and a little to much for them so he goes on with his life and I go on miserable and unable to find a fun loving relationsjp that can keep my attentions like he can without even seeing me. We share a love and understanding that words don't even need to be spoken between us because we simply understand one another like that. I sometimes wonder will I ever find another like that or will I always be doomed to a lonely life

I was on this site for over a year after my sister was murdered and it helped me so much at the time, but somewhere along the lines I got my head to big and felt like I didn't need to talk to my fellow members as much about things anymore, and well here I am again because the more I cut myself off and tried to do eveything all alone, my life slowly started to crumble and before I knew it, or could stop it it had become a landslide and now I have nothing again to look foward to it seems like so I am in hopes that this time I have learned a huge lesson in humility and can regain my balance with the help of my fellow members here on VR as well as once I get into a coven.