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it seems that i'm going threw yet another change... thoughs that are vampire/otherkin knows how it feels... its 1 after another after another after ANATHER! this1 seems to enhance evrything i feel by what seems to be 70 to 100% more. from the way i been feeling latly, thats not a good thing...i dont meen to wine but i'm not as stroung as ppl say i am. i can only take so much. if it gets to my braking point, i'm thinking about useing this spell that some1 i know made...i was never 1 for spells but if it warks, all that is in me will be bound in her. i can get it back she says but only she would be able to do it being that she made the spell. its a hard choice to make and i know that it will make me week if i do this. i would be "human"...hell i feel week for even thingking about it but its too much pain...i need help. i dont think i can do this on my own anymore...

(dont mind the bad spelling)



not much going on but being that i didnt have anything in here yet, i disided to put something in. its been a wile since i seen my g/f. but in 15 more days, i'll be with her again in S.C.. never the less, its been hard. i try to be stroung about it but when you feel the way about some1 that i do of her, any1 can see that its not that easy. anyway when i get there we are gona try to get a place together. its said that theres a big chance that we will. if not, i will have to come back to texas intill we find a place that we can both afford. (she is rooming with some friends right now) so all i can do is sit, count down the days and hope for the best...pray to the Gods/godesses for us. we'll need it.



theres nothing realy do to here. i have the comp so i just stay on that all day. TV is always taken so i have to wait for evry1 to go to bed so i can watch what i wana watch. oh well. they do say that TV rots the brain and as you can see from my bad spelling, i need to keep what i got lol. i do have friends here but its only a few. (not many ppl wants to be around a freak like me...oh well) sadly they are always busy. maybe i can catch up with them on the weakend if i call early anogh.



so all in all, thats whats going on right now. very few ups. lots of downs but a good plan to look up to.