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You can spin things however you want - but its not like people didn't already know about your drug habits. Especially when you keep telling people it is medicinal. The fact that you handed my address out and said, "Oh I just gonna tell ya her lies are piling up she just wrote a long ass journal entry and I'm letting anyone know if they want to get her got for it I'm tired of fucking petty ass liars"

Really?? Have you lost your fucking bloody mind - of course you are going to deny that, because all you give a fuck is about what people think of you on here. It's not like I am the first person who called you out on that shit. And you gave my address to a have someone else to verify it was correct because you didn't have my zipcode. Bitch do you even think anyone believes that shit?? You had my address in the GPS and if you had a question on whether it was correct or not you had no problem with sending me a text two days ago, but not once did you ask for the address. So there some more lies and bullshit. And oh I know you claim you never told anyone to make a call on me - but guess what they didn't call they called me to tell me word for word what you said. But of course now that person is the one lying and spreading rumors right ? But here I thought you and this person where such good friends - flip flop much ? Oh and being you want to be like this lets just throw this out there too. You may not be an acolyte right now, but you sure as fuck didn't take the test last time you passed on your own - you had someone else give you the answers. But oh ya we don't want to talk about that because your such a stand up person right ? Or how about at least two people myself included you handed your passwords out to all of your accts including your a assistant house master profile - all with the complete go ahead for them to be used with giving negative honor to someone who is a friend one week and a foe the next - but i believe you keep telling me its more of keep your friends close but your enemies closer right ?

This is the last I have to say on any of this - I am fucking done.

Let's talk about a different perspective of how the trip was for me shall we. Not everything was rainbows and beautiful sunsets. Am I eternally grateful that you offered to take me there and spend 9 days with my brother, who is not well and attend a funeral of a friend that died from overdose ? Absolutely. Did everything go as plan absolutely not. The reason was for those two reasons - It was made clear that I can't drive because I don't have a licence and was asked many times and because I felt obligated i do a few times and it caused me so much anxiety. To be asked to find a certain substance on your first day here - should have been my first clue. Yes smoke pot - blah blah blah blah I smoke for medicinal purposes, because I don't do pain medication. To compare that to powder is absolutely ridiculous. Especially being someone else whom you called family sent you money because you said you didn't have gas to get here, so he did and sent you more than enough to get here, and how so being you had no money other then what was sent how were going t pay for that. I smoked before we left because I have massive anxiety when I am in the car and not the one driver - you sat no more than 3 feet from me while i was smoking. Didn't have an issue. We left at 3 am from my house headed to NY Not 3 hours in you said you couldn't drive anymore and I would have to drive - I had massive anxiety. Just after sun up I pulled over me and the kids got something to eat while you slept another hour in the car. Got back in the car and continued the drive. Made a few more stops and finally made it to NY. I was so happy to see my Brother . I was exhausted but stayed up all night talking with him - long heart to heart talks. Finally went to bed slept a few hours and realized we had no smokes when we woke up so we all went out to the Rez to get smokes, my son filled the tank, we all got smokes. The next day you are asking if my brother can get you something - I guess the searching for some type of black plate at dollar tree should have also been a huge sign. It's not that I didn't know how often you were doing it being we were talking daily for a long time - and its not like you didn't tell your other person who you claimed as family how often that you were snorting but ya know its all medicinal right ? The conversation had already been had that you either got off the shit or had to find some place else to live - But I know you don't have a problem with it you do it for your migraines - said no fucking person ever. Hell you couldn't eve afford to get it up there and asked me to cover you until the next day when your husband sent you money and my brother still had to chip in. Yes i got myself some pot because i was filled with anxiety and being there caused me to be anxious plus you know i dont fuck withthat shit as I have had to bury to many fucking people and I sure as fuck didn't want someone whom i am trying to keep alive to do that either. Granted I have no control over a grown man but god damn when its right in front of you kind of hard to say no. But ya know what make me out to be the asshole.

We got a friends of mine to do laundry and have dinner - because she one of my closest and dearest friends. Yes again we all smoke - its legal in NY for medicinal and thats why so many smoke - I know but your allergic to it but you kew everyone smokes - cant expect everyone to go out in the cold when we wanted to you could have gone to another room or any where. But at my friends when we went out to smoke you say i wish i had some powder - my friend was floored. Instead of staying with me you offer to take my brother to go pick up some friends - yes they gave you gas money we all put gas in the car so that idea that you were driving every where and no one was giving you gas is some bullshit. But any ways you go pick up my brothers friends in the city come back and get us we had all eating dinner my friend mad and it was late and I needed to get little man into bed.

Next day we made the trip up to Buffalo and Niagara Falls - again put gas in car went to my mother in laws and she have you some beautiful jewelry a coffee mug - we went and saw Niagara Falls and headed back to the house. My brother had friends over that brought there own party supplies and you complain that they ony gave you a little line - are you kidding me. Next day you wake up literally pulling your head out saying you need your medicine your head hurts you jump in your car and take off we have no idea whats going on. You asked my brother several times to get something for you. two days before we go home you go on a cleaning spree no one asked you to do that. My brother comes home from work and first thing is oh i did all this cleaning usually i get paid when i clean like that. NOt even an hour before i tell you do not ask him to get you anything again. But oh no right at the door and yes he offered but you should have fucking said no. But I know you don't have an issue with it right ?

Next day we go back to Buffalo to my MIL house she gives you another bracelet because you said you like dragons we had to be back because I had a funeral to go to that I was a nervous wreck about. One more night before we head back I suggested we stay up so we can sleep during the day being we were to leave around 8 pm the next day. But do you sleep no not at all you decide your going to pack the car leave your trunk open and doos open most the day still you dont sleep i finally tell you you need to lay down you do for an hour under Cat called and then you were up. How the fuck you going to drive with no sleep on an 12 hour drive back. You were supposed to have money for gas on the way back , but you didn't my brother filled the tank and alex and I took turns on gas on the way back. @ hours in you say i need to drive - I told you i would not be driving, so you say we need to pull over so you can sleep. We do in some shady ass parking lot with some strange dude again you ask me to drive I told you i wouldn't so we drive a bit more get into virginia and you pull into a rest station. Not to mention that we stopped so I could get coffee and while i am in there you tell alex oh great shes buying something else. Yes i did bought donuts because i had got snacks and all Ty wanted was chips but you ate them So yes I bought donuts big fucking deal. It was my money I was spending. We have to pull over again and you sleep for about 3 hours we get up and go. We finally make it back to Tn we stop at walmart to pick up some stuff as needed cat food and what not and something for Ty for dinner as we had been gone all week and there was nothng at the house. you had half a tank when we got to tn and you didnt think you had enough gas to get home. You already said you made it to my house on the way here on 1/4 tank so how is half a tank going not get you home ? You leave i start unpacking and realize there is things missing as you had packed the car i didnt have a phone charger i went up with two but didnt have my iphone block which u had two off. I didnt accuse you of stealing i said things were missing. You said you found one charger and one f my rings I was missing two. Ty had dvds that wwre missing along with the portable dvd player which we later found out was at my brothers but he only had ne movie 6 still missing. You told you would send them that was 2 weeks ago it dont cost but 2.00 to stuff it in a bubble mailer and drop it in a mailbox, but what ever.

I hadnt heard a peep from you in two weeks but you were certainly talking to my brother - not that you care that i was in the fucking hospital was sick as a dog high blood pressure and find out i have a other things going on and need to have a biopsy but again what ever. Then yesterday i hop on here and i read that my brother and his dog are moving down with you --- are you fucking kidding me. what a fucking way to find out. As it was just the day before i had him all set up for rehab down here where he has a support system. But as you say this is all his idea, nothing about the fact that you told me that you had to go to rehab or move out -- seletive memory much ? Yes because a alcoholic who needs to get sober so he doesnt die needs to live with someone who had a drug addiction ? In what fucking reality did you think that would fly. But did you call me, no i had to read that here.

So if you are wondering why I left Hell along with henry it doesnt take a rocket scientist. This wasn't a party trip vacation this was to get a plan set up for my brother and for me to say good bye to a friend who died of an over dose great way to be there for someone you claim you can't live with out. you can spin this how ever you want - but I have said what I had to say - stay the fuck away from my brother that would be the blind leading the blind -I got this I have his well being because he is my well being. Why don't you go ask one of your drug buddies to be your roommate. Don't bother calling him to say how pissed off I am - because he already knows - if he calls don't answer I dont need you putting anymore ideas on his his head because that would be like the blind leading the blind.I dont need him around that crap and you can tell me forever that you haven't touched it. Ya he may have called you drunk saying to come get him - you should have called me- he is not your fucking responsibility.


Get your shit together - he is not your problem and all of your telling him that you could all live together are you out of your fucking mind ?

Ya I left a comment on your journal - of course you deleted it and edited out where you said you were moving out. Its funny we have all been telling you to divorce your husband but nothing but my brother says he doesnt get involved with married women and your all of the sudden now going to get a divorce - how did you think that was going to work out. ? Forgive me if im pissed the fuck off - I think it is deserved. So yes I pulled my profiles from Hell because I am done. You can tell me to the cows come home that your not using - I don't believe you. I hope it was worth losing two people whom you claimed you couldn't live with out.

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ABHORASHX
17:13 Nov 03 2019

I put up a journal. I am angry and I am sad and I am disgusted and I am done. Hell was ALWAYS supposed to be our home but some things I will NOT tolerate or live with.

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